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people i care about shouldn't go to la for the weekend...because i will miss them.
today i felt so alone at school. i walked into core and was THE ONLY person not talking very enthusiastically, at great length, about "jello shots night" at lily's house. when i very blunty declined the request to make an appearance people were suprised...do my friends not know me at all? do i not make it very fucking obvious that i hate intoxication? i feel like i am the only sober person in my circle of friends. fuck, even lindsay smokes now. it's so goddamn common around here. or wherever you go. in the suburbs it's rich kids with nothing to do. in the cities it's people scrounging for change with nothing to live for. it's all such a fucking waste. i can't even explain why i hate it so much. i can't even put it to words at all. i feel pure emotional disgust towards any form of intoxication. i hate it, there's nothing more to elaborate on, i just hate it. plain and simple. somebody run away and be sober with me forever.
today i felt so alone at school. i walked into core and was THE ONLY person not talking very enthusiastically, at great length, about "jello shots night" at lily's house. when i very blunty declined the request to make an appearance people were suprised...do my friends not know me at all? do i not make it very fucking obvious that i hate intoxication? i feel like i am the only sober person in my circle of friends. fuck, even lindsay smokes now. it's so goddamn common around here. or wherever you go. in the suburbs it's rich kids with nothing to do. in the cities it's people scrounging for change with nothing to live for. it's all such a fucking waste. i can't even explain why i hate it so much. i can't even put it to words at all. i feel pure emotional disgust towards any form of intoxication. i hate it, there's nothing more to elaborate on, i just hate it. plain and simple. somebody run away and be sober with me forever.