I can't breathe you're inside me.
There are things that happen, choices made, and actions that people are aware of or unaware of that can form a persons character through the eyes of onlookers. Things have happened lately that were completely out of character for me. I feel disgusting and upset with myself. Everyday this feeling has been getting worse. Today, I woke up and had this horrible feeling of not wanting to be in my body. The last time I posted I said how disgusted I was because of the lack of respect people have for themselves... but if I look at me through the eyes of someone else lately… they’re probably thinking that about me. I respect myself too much for these unwanted and unintentional things to happen. I haven’t lost respect for myself… I’ve lost trust in myself. If I could take all of this back, I would in a second. I hate that this happened. There are so many questions unanswered, and so much that I want to know and I don’t think I ever will. I didn’t think that finding this out would hurt as much as it does. I’ve made myself seem to be something I’m not and something that I don’t want to be. It’s time to calm down.. because I crossed the line.