*sigh*
It's awful when you don't know what to feel when someone you didn't know too well dies.. and it's even worse when that person is your grandfather.. someone you wish you would have known better..
I wish i would have been with him during his last days.
I wish..
I wish..
Damnit.. The past won't be back, and there is no way i can make it up to him or he can make it up to me.
I feel bad.. but i felt weird when i noticed i was the only one crying besides my mom and my grandma in the cemetery.. weird.. cause he was my dad's father.. not my mom's.. and even worse cause i barely got to spend time with him, and i was the only grandchild there.. the rest were somewhere but there.. it sucks.. it was really sad.. and i couldn't help to regret the fact i didn't spend enough time with him.
I'm sorry grandpa. I'm sorry i lived far and was too busy to visit you when you were fine.
I'm really sorry.
I'm going to visit my grandma for the rest of the week cause she's all alone now. She's my only grandma now. My mom's parents died 11 years ago. Right now i want to get to spend some time with my grandma cause i don't want her or me to leave this world without getting to know each other in a better way.
R.I.P. Angel Alejos.. I'm still feeling bad cause you left this world and i couldn't get to know you better, but in a certain way i'm happy to know your pain finally stopped. I hope you are with God now, wherever you might be..
I wish i would have been with him during his last days.
I wish..
I wish..
Damnit.. The past won't be back, and there is no way i can make it up to him or he can make it up to me.
I feel bad.. but i felt weird when i noticed i was the only one crying besides my mom and my grandma in the cemetery.. weird.. cause he was my dad's father.. not my mom's.. and even worse cause i barely got to spend time with him, and i was the only grandchild there.. the rest were somewhere but there.. it sucks.. it was really sad.. and i couldn't help to regret the fact i didn't spend enough time with him.
I'm sorry grandpa. I'm sorry i lived far and was too busy to visit you when you were fine.
I'm really sorry.
I'm going to visit my grandma for the rest of the week cause she's all alone now. She's my only grandma now. My mom's parents died 11 years ago. Right now i want to get to spend some time with my grandma cause i don't want her or me to leave this world without getting to know each other in a better way.
R.I.P. Angel Alejos.. I'm still feeling bad cause you left this world and i couldn't get to know you better, but in a certain way i'm happy to know your pain finally stopped. I hope you are with God now, wherever you might be..