Aug 21, 2004 22:41
I'm back from myrtle beach. I missed Jackson, until I got here.
I just can't get a minute to be happy. I'm trying hard.
I want something until I get it, but then I don't seem to be satisfied.
I'm stubborn about everything. I expect too much. Far too much. It's me.
I set my self up for dissapointment time and time again. Don't apologize, its on me. This time I see it was too much to ask for.
'No expectations, no dissapointments'
...Maybe next time.
So I feel really sick for many reasons. I think I have a fever. Chills and cramps aren't cool either, neither is the constant feeling of needing to puke. Okay, I'm done now.
I just don't get why people lie. It makes things so much harder.