MY BIRTHDAY SUCKED :(
I don't know if its just me but does anyone get depressed on their bday? Mine is today *friday* since its 240am here! *sigh* It just reminds me of how many people don't care if your here or not.. Your bday is suppose to be special but everyone makes it out be a big deal... My mom asked if any of my "friends" were doing anything with me tomorrow since its friday night I said nope! I have no one to do anythning with :( I have no gf and no friends to hang out with... My "father" said i'm to old to get gifts so whatever... Sorry I had to vent.. I just cleaned manicly for 3 hours my mom even asked if I was ok :( no i'm not at all! I'm going to be 23 and look at me! *sigh* just another miserable year gone... and another one approching... I wonder if anyone killed themselves on their bdays... hmmm
Well I woke up at 3pm with a huge headache... layed in bed to after 4pm took care of my dog and still am because he's sick :( I just want to cry my mom keeps asking me why i'm so depressed well... for the first time in 23 years my Nanny didn't call me for my bday, my godmother who is also born on the same day, my grandmother didnt call me!!! The only one to call me was my friend E...I was also suppose to see this girl I like tonight and she dicked me over again and hasn't even said anythign to me in IM...I'm so done I just want to slit my wrists and die... the moment i see anyone hugging, kissing I get so jealous because I know I'll never have that again! I just want to go to sleep and never wake up...
Well I woke up at 3pm with a huge headache... layed in bed to after 4pm took care of my dog and still am because he's sick :( I just want to cry my mom keeps asking me why i'm so depressed well... for the first time in 23 years my Nanny didn't call me for my bday, my godmother who is also born on the same day, my grandmother didnt call me!!! The only one to call me was my friend E...I was also suppose to see this girl I like tonight and she dicked me over again and hasn't even said anythign to me in IM...I'm so done I just want to slit my wrists and die... the moment i see anyone hugging, kissing I get so jealous because I know I'll never have that again! I just want to go to sleep and never wake up...