goodbye.

[_eulogy4anangel]

i used to get so excited when i saw the name.
i sat and waited forever just for you to get on.
i thought and i was wrong.
i hoped and it wasnt worth it.
i wished, once or twice, and no one heard.
i smiled at the thought of it.
i cried at the pain of it.
i remember the happiness and the sadness.
i feel the pain and sorrow.
i will always remember, cant say the same for you.
i waited and waited for it to work.
i crossed my fingers knowing that it wouldnt.
i still feel the pain.
i will always have that with me.

i used to feel so special.
i used to hope.
i used to want.
i used to wait.
i used to cry.
i used to wish.
i used to feel.
i used to get so excited when it was you.

no longer will it happen.
no longer will i feel that way.
no longer will i wait for it.
no longer will i cry b/c of it.
no longer will i hope for it.
no longer will i wish for it.
no longer will you make me feel this way.

im done.
these feelings will never go away,
but it is the best i can do.
im done for good.

p.s. i used to get so excited when it was you.

its over.

for good.