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Erin took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!
"Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in ..."
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that quiz is pretty cool. it's often quite accurate too, but I guess it's just because it is vague and says things that probably often apply to a lot of people. oh well.
I've still got school on my mind even though I've been home almost a week. it's stressing me out, and I'm not easily stressed. it's completely my fault though, I've really and truly fucked myself over this time! I've just basically been fucking around all semester.. and plus I hated most of my classes so that didn't help. but the worst thing is that I didn't write my final math exam. yes, I am an idiot. I MISSED it. most of my school's exams aren't written at the school... they're written at the Toronto Convention Centre, which is a good 25 min walk (at least!) from my dorm. me being an idiot didn't leave in enough time, and also didn't even really know where I was going. I ended up not making it there in time, and you're not supposed to go in late, so I just didn't. BLAH. it sounds like SUCH a dumb mistake, I know.. probably one of my dumbest ever. it's really going to cost me too, that exam was worth a whopping 40% of my mark, ugh. I emailed my prof too see if there was anything at all I could do, but he never did reply. what's with that? I even tried calling during his office hours but no answer.. I probably should've left a message but I didn't even know what to say. my chemistry mark is going to be shit too I'm sure, I won't be surprised if I fail it. and I'm not stupid, I could do well if I'd just apply myself. I'm really scared that my being an idiot has screwed everything up for me this time though. I just wish someone could tell me it's all going to work out the way I want, you know? and even though I feel like crap, I'll likely continue to be the same old slacker in school as usual! but at least if I am able to do what I want (like take psychology for example..) I probably won't have such an issue with doing the required work.
I'm also kind of upset by the fact that I'm not spending the holidays with my friends. :( because of course, they are in Nova Scotia and I'm here in Ontario. it just sucks that they are all home from university, having a good time together once again, and I am here, alone. well, I have my family, and for that I'm glad... but still. I'd love to see my old friends. I've made friends at university, but they don't live in my city which sucks. and it still wouldn't be the same, I don't have the same history with these new friends as I do with my old ones. there is no replacing it. I've known some of those people since I was 5. I guess you've got to start somewhere though, right?
on the subject of friends, people really piss me off sometimes. they disappoint me even. some people are SO two faced. I won't go into details much, but I think maybe I expect too much from people? or maybe I just have back luck? maybe I shouldn't be so nice... I think people take advantage of me sometimes. perhaps if I start only caring about myself people will come to me, since it seems that people like to be around those who aren't so good to them.. I guess they are seeking acceptance. it seems to be the trend, anyway. but no, I won't do that. I won't compromise myself. I'm hoping someday I will find some genuine, LOYAL people, or one person would be nice even, lol.
despite these things that are on my mind, I am having a good break. I don't want to focus on the negative. :) also writing this made me feel much better even though nothing is resolved. I should spill my guts more often! :p
hope you're all doing well. :)
just thought I'd bring some festive joy to your screens...
our Christmas tree! this picture is pretty shit quality I know, my camera is junk haha.. I really need a new one. but you get the idea.
now some random pics of Christmas stuff in Toronto haha..
the tree in the Eaton Centre (mall/my second home)
some lights in Dundas Square
tree in Dundas Square, it changes colours!
a shit picture of some lights on trees
city hall and a tree
Nathan Philips Square.. set up as an ice rink
tree at Nathan Philips Square
wish I had some pics of the decorations in Barrie.. perhaps later!
that's all folks. I think I am going to go to bed early (or at least earlier than usual..) because I want to wake up early. I get WAY more done if I don't sleep till noon or later. I'm tired of wasting away my days.