arrrgghhh
fuck i hate being bipolar...these mood swings kick my ass... why couldn't some horrible person be like me and me change? i'm never fully happy i guess you could say... i mean i have my days or moments i should say but a majority of the time i'm sad or upset about something... anger sometimes gets the best of me...i guess a lot of the sadness right now is b/c of all the depressing things that have been happening here lately...and plus the fact that i have a really hard time trusting anyone b/c so many ppl have screwed me over in some way or another... i mean i have my bf and i'm content with that but sometimes it doesn't seem like enough... i just can't seem to find anyone that isn't concerned about themselves all the time and would just sit back and listen to me sometime ... that might seem selfish but hell you can only keep stuff bottled up for so long... i'm sick of being the girl that everyone tells their problems to and expects me to come up with these brillant answers to all their questions and problems... i have problems just like any other normal person does but no one besides nick takes the time out to listen to me