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seriously, why is it everytime i come back here i feel let down? i dont hate it here i swear i just hate my life here. its so annoying. i dont do anything.
im worried though, what if when i move nothing changes? its always my solution, but what if it isnt? what if i get there and everything sucks? i always blame stuff on everything but me. it is my fault though. i could have more friends, i could do more thihngs, but i dont want to be fake. theres so much in my life i want different, but i dont even try to change it now. i just say it will be different when i move.
i cant even write my feelings down anymore, i dont know what is wrong with me. i cant focus on anything anymore.
im worried though, what if when i move nothing changes? its always my solution, but what if it isnt? what if i get there and everything sucks? i always blame stuff on everything but me. it is my fault though. i could have more friends, i could do more thihngs, but i dont want to be fake. theres so much in my life i want different, but i dont even try to change it now. i just say it will be different when i move.
i cant even write my feelings down anymore, i dont know what is wrong with me. i cant focus on anything anymore.