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I find myself regretting a majority of the things I do these days. And I have come to the conclusion that I don't have one friend that I can count on for anything. These are some awesome situations.
So, I got a second job because I couldn't afford to pay my bills and to put towards all the 'fun events' that are happening this summer. But now I don't think half of these summer plans are happening. Because the situation that happened this weekend changed my entire views of everything. And I have no desire to do half of what I had planned. So now that everything is turned upside down and I'm going to have all this extra cash and nothing to do with it.. I'm putting it in the bank and saving up to get out. I don't necessarily know if I'm going to use it to get my own place or just use it to travel. I'm thinking traveling is my best bet. Considering for as long as I can remember that's all I wanted to do and it's still all I seem to think about. I think it's really the only thing that would make me really honestly happy. Because right now I'm not. My life is one big roller coaster it seems. One month I'm having the time of my life and everything is fantastic, then the next month I hate everything about my life and just want to start over. It's very frustrating.
I'll get everything figured out eventually. It's just taking a very long time to do so.
So, I got a second job because I couldn't afford to pay my bills and to put towards all the 'fun events' that are happening this summer. But now I don't think half of these summer plans are happening. Because the situation that happened this weekend changed my entire views of everything. And I have no desire to do half of what I had planned. So now that everything is turned upside down and I'm going to have all this extra cash and nothing to do with it.. I'm putting it in the bank and saving up to get out. I don't necessarily know if I'm going to use it to get my own place or just use it to travel. I'm thinking traveling is my best bet. Considering for as long as I can remember that's all I wanted to do and it's still all I seem to think about. I think it's really the only thing that would make me really honestly happy. Because right now I'm not. My life is one big roller coaster it seems. One month I'm having the time of my life and everything is fantastic, then the next month I hate everything about my life and just want to start over. It's very frustrating.
I'll get everything figured out eventually. It's just taking a very long time to do so.