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Stars we don't want to reach,
Scars we don't want to stitch...
Went up to my 1/2 sister Alex's at the weekend. Daypass to Centre Parcs. There were these rapids that threw up around and dragged you under and thrashed you about, and I went down them several times completely limp. In the moments when I got dragged under I panicked and thought 'no, I wouldn't like drowning' but I kept letting it happen. I let myself get dragged under by the wave machine and I was reveling in the feeling of panicking until I smashed into a wall grate, then I felt sick and that's the only reason I swam out of the current and into the flow pass. Bang bang scratch trying to hold onto the rocks on the sides and my shoulders ached and I loved it. Feeling so alive and so dead at the same time.
Scars we don't want to stitch...
Went up to my 1/2 sister Alex's at the weekend. Daypass to Centre Parcs. There were these rapids that threw up around and dragged you under and thrashed you about, and I went down them several times completely limp. In the moments when I got dragged under I panicked and thought 'no, I wouldn't like drowning' but I kept letting it happen. I let myself get dragged under by the wave machine and I was reveling in the feeling of panicking until I smashed into a wall grate, then I felt sick and that's the only reason I swam out of the current and into the flow pass. Bang bang scratch trying to hold onto the rocks on the sides and my shoulders ached and I loved it. Feeling so alive and so dead at the same time.