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nothing exciting ever happens anymore.
my friends are jerks but not on purpose,
but they make me feel obligated to have a boyfriend now,
even though I was okay with being single before,
and now I constantly second guess myself and my desriability? if thats even a word.
seriously, I feel like the fifth wheel all the time now,
and subaru is a fucking cock sucker and actually straight up said
"Emily why can't you go find a boyfriend?"
can't...as if I CAN'T get a boyfriend.
I'm seriosuly sick of him.
and my girlfriends are all like "Em we need to find you a boy... Let's go boy hunting for you"
they're not saying it to be mean or anything, but it makes me feel like it's as if I'm desperate or soemthing
and I'm certainly not desperate,
otherwise I'd be dating Miguel right now,
and I'd NEVER go out with Miguel.
I haven't had a boyfriend for like....a year and a half.
there are guys I could have gone out with, but I have high standards now...
but my friends kinda make me feel as if I shouldn't and that I should just date someone
just for the sake of having someone.
but I've done that too much in the past, and I always get sick of them, or they hurt me, or whatever.
I'm just holding out for someone who I actually like,
and someone who actually really likes me as much as I like them.
but sometime I think I should just date any guy who'll have me,
just to get them off my case.
fuck.
my friends are jerks but not on purpose,
but they make me feel obligated to have a boyfriend now,
even though I was okay with being single before,
and now I constantly second guess myself and my desriability? if thats even a word.
seriously, I feel like the fifth wheel all the time now,
and subaru is a fucking cock sucker and actually straight up said
"Emily why can't you go find a boyfriend?"
can't...as if I CAN'T get a boyfriend.
I'm seriosuly sick of him.
and my girlfriends are all like "Em we need to find you a boy... Let's go boy hunting for you"
they're not saying it to be mean or anything, but it makes me feel like it's as if I'm desperate or soemthing
and I'm certainly not desperate,
otherwise I'd be dating Miguel right now,
and I'd NEVER go out with Miguel.
I haven't had a boyfriend for like....a year and a half.
there are guys I could have gone out with, but I have high standards now...
but my friends kinda make me feel as if I shouldn't and that I should just date someone
just for the sake of having someone.
but I've done that too much in the past, and I always get sick of them, or they hurt me, or whatever.
I'm just holding out for someone who I actually like,
and someone who actually really likes me as much as I like them.
but sometime I think I should just date any guy who'll have me,
just to get them off my case.
fuck.