grood day,
today was.......grood.
I spent it mostly with him, getting high....touching him, TRYING TO WAKE HIM UP.
OH THE THINGS I WANT TO SAY BUT I CANT SAY!
there were so many of those perfect moments where there was an opening,
but I had to refrain.
and I actually slept with him today, (in a non sexual way)
which was pretty much torture.
he tried to cuddle with me, but I pushed him away and said I had to go to the bathroom, which I now really regret.
but when we were lying together, I just wanted to hold him and kiss him,
but I can't.
when he was sleeping, I put my head on his chest and breathed in his scent and listened to his heart beat,
and I have never wanted him more in my life,
but I can't have him.
he is untouchable to me, and I believe that's what makes him to alluring to me.
it's not too great when you're falling for one of your best friend's boyfriend :(
shit, I'm so fucking emo. GARRR!
on a lighter note,
I'M MOVING TO THE BAHAMAS!!! XD
my dad got a job offer to be the project manager for a condo estate
it's almost official, it's not permanent, (2, maybe 3 years)
and I can go to college there.
my dad is leaving next march, and come next june, I'll be soaking up the sun ;)
PENIS!
I spent it mostly with him, getting high....touching him, TRYING TO WAKE HIM UP.
OH THE THINGS I WANT TO SAY BUT I CANT SAY!
there were so many of those perfect moments where there was an opening,
but I had to refrain.
and I actually slept with him today, (in a non sexual way)
which was pretty much torture.
he tried to cuddle with me, but I pushed him away and said I had to go to the bathroom, which I now really regret.
but when we were lying together, I just wanted to hold him and kiss him,
but I can't.
when he was sleeping, I put my head on his chest and breathed in his scent and listened to his heart beat,
and I have never wanted him more in my life,
but I can't have him.
he is untouchable to me, and I believe that's what makes him to alluring to me.
it's not too great when you're falling for one of your best friend's boyfriend :(
shit, I'm so fucking emo. GARRR!
on a lighter note,
I'M MOVING TO THE BAHAMAS!!! XD
my dad got a job offer to be the project manager for a condo estate
it's almost official, it's not permanent, (2, maybe 3 years)
and I can go to college there.
my dad is leaving next march, and come next june, I'll be soaking up the sun ;)
PENIS!