Throw away my misery, it never meant that much to me...
The Bright Eyes concert was amazing, and I ran into people I didn't remember, but I actually knew... It was good times...and I helped someone out, and made a couple new friends, so, that's always fun...
But, something is wrong with me again, and I don't know what...
"Are We Really Happy With Who We Are Right Now?"
Because, I don't really think I am right now... I know that I can be something great, I'm just scared to acheive it... And I feel I've made more mistakes than I should be allowed to make. I also wish everyone didn't think I was such a good person, when I know that I'm not...
"And if I hurt you then i'm sorry,
please don't think that this is easy,
And then you bring me home,
Cause we both know what its like to be alone"
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I know that it is apparent, and I'm tired of people bringing it up as a fault. I'm sooooo sorry that I've hurt the people that I've hurt, but at the time, I didn't think I was hurting anyone. I hope to be able to make atones for it soon, and if I'm not able to, I will keep trying until I succeed.
"The hint of these new tears are sharp.
I try to choke them back.
It's useless.
I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease."
Enough apologies. I shall make everyone proud of me soon. I want my family to be proud to call me family. I want my friends to be proud to call me family too. I shall make you all proud of me! My mom talking to me tonight meant alot. Tonight she said I wasn't an accident. Tonight she made me proud to be her son. Tonight she made up for all the lonely Christmases. Tonight she was my mother, and nothing will take that away!
"The sun came up with no conclusion
It’s flowers sleeping in their beds
The cities cometary’s humming
I’m wide-awake, it’s morning."
I went to the Anberlin show tonight, and it started well, but at the end of the night, someone was mad at me for what I think was no reason at all. And as far as I'm concerned... if someone wants to be a part of my life, and enjoy the ride with me, that's fine, but if you don't, or want to throw me off my track, I have other news for you....My train isn't going to derail, and you'll most likely fall off... (just future reference for new friends) and this is my closing, and I need all my friends to know I Love You and I'm sorry if I've been distant lately.
"The end of the paralysis
I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys
It all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier."
I'll see everyone soon, I'm sure, and if I don't please know I'm always with you till we see each other again!
"I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist."
But, something is wrong with me again, and I don't know what...
"Are We Really Happy With Who We Are Right Now?"
Because, I don't really think I am right now... I know that I can be something great, I'm just scared to acheive it... And I feel I've made more mistakes than I should be allowed to make. I also wish everyone didn't think I was such a good person, when I know that I'm not...
"And if I hurt you then i'm sorry,
please don't think that this is easy,
And then you bring me home,
Cause we both know what its like to be alone"
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I know that it is apparent, and I'm tired of people bringing it up as a fault. I'm sooooo sorry that I've hurt the people that I've hurt, but at the time, I didn't think I was hurting anyone. I hope to be able to make atones for it soon, and if I'm not able to, I will keep trying until I succeed.
"The hint of these new tears are sharp.
I try to choke them back.
It's useless.
I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease."
Enough apologies. I shall make everyone proud of me soon. I want my family to be proud to call me family. I want my friends to be proud to call me family too. I shall make you all proud of me! My mom talking to me tonight meant alot. Tonight she said I wasn't an accident. Tonight she made me proud to be her son. Tonight she made up for all the lonely Christmases. Tonight she was my mother, and nothing will take that away!
"The sun came up with no conclusion
It’s flowers sleeping in their beds
The cities cometary’s humming
I’m wide-awake, it’s morning."
I went to the Anberlin show tonight, and it started well, but at the end of the night, someone was mad at me for what I think was no reason at all. And as far as I'm concerned... if someone wants to be a part of my life, and enjoy the ride with me, that's fine, but if you don't, or want to throw me off my track, I have other news for you....My train isn't going to derail, and you'll most likely fall off... (just future reference for new friends) and this is my closing, and I need all my friends to know I Love You and I'm sorry if I've been distant lately.
"The end of the paralysis
I was a statuette
Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench
And when I press the keys
It all gets reversed
The sound of loneliness makes me happier."
I'll see everyone soon, I'm sure, and if I don't please know I'm always with you till we see each other again!
"I know,
You might roll your eyes at this,
But I'm so,
Glad that you exist."