Le sigh....
I think I may be socially inept when it comes to concerning courtship and dating. I am sure most of my peers have had some experience in this area whereas I have had very little. Sometimes, I feel as though I am missing out on that aspect of my adolecsence...like I missed out on some sort of milstone moment.
I hate having intimate-- for lack of a better word-- feelings towards someone, because I don't know if the feelings are reciprical. I don't like that feeling of uncertainty. Whenever I feel that way I anticipate rejection. I tend to apply Murphy's Law to relationships...frequently.
It's how I feel now about someone and I really do dislike it. It stresses me out to think of whether or not he will return my feelings and if my gestures will be well recieved, if he will call me...ever, if I am even one fleeting thought among many. I cellphone became another appendage whereas before I could care less where the hell it was or who called when. It makes me feel a tad bit neurotic-- and I don't like it.
I wish I were a sponge so I would be asexual and could reproduce through budding.....
I hate having intimate-- for lack of a better word-- feelings towards someone, because I don't know if the feelings are reciprical. I don't like that feeling of uncertainty. Whenever I feel that way I anticipate rejection. I tend to apply Murphy's Law to relationships...frequently.
It's how I feel now about someone and I really do dislike it. It stresses me out to think of whether or not he will return my feelings and if my gestures will be well recieved, if he will call me...ever, if I am even one fleeting thought among many. I cellphone became another appendage whereas before I could care less where the hell it was or who called when. It makes me feel a tad bit neurotic-- and I don't like it.
I wish I were a sponge so I would be asexual and could reproduce through budding.....