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You know, my sister and my brother-in-law are really starting to piss me off about the whole college thing. I don't care what they did to have fun in college, I am not Heather and I am certainly not Kevin. I'm fucking tired of it being aluded to that I'm not "cool" or that I'm not "normal".
I DON'T DRINK. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO DESIRE TO. YES, I'VE BEEN DRUNK. I DON'T FUCKING ENJOY IT. GET THE HELL OVER IT AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE ABOUT IT.
And Heather is really starting to piss me off with the weight loss thing. We were on this 4 mile walk around her neighborhood and it was a time when I was just starting to work out more (which I do because it's fun). I start saying how happy I am that I can feel that I'm healthier and how I'm finally happy with my body image. My sister's amazing and "supportive" response?
"You know you're still overweight, right?"
What...
The...
FUCK?
I'VE JUST TOLD YOU, for like the FIRST time in my LIFE that I'm HAPPY with my body, and THAT'S all you say to me?
Okay well...15 minutes after I typed that last sentence because I had to have a little crying session...
My mom saw me crying to, so of course she's all "comforting".
"She said she just wants to be sure you're having a good time and meeting people, we've talked about it before."
"Well I DO meet people and I normally have a good time. It's just that I meet the people who also don't drink. Heather's got to realize that I am not her. I may have looked up to her, and I may value her opinion, but it's not because I thought she was 'cool' because she drank in college or because she partied. It's because she has a great career and she studied her way through a masters degree. Professionally, she inspires me. Socially, we're incredibly different."
"And as far as your weight, well, she worries about you. She used to be heavier and now she's obsessed with losing weight."
"And she doesn't need to. She's beautiful! It's just that for the first time in my LIFE I was happy about the way I looked and she just shot that down because she's not satisfied with herself."
"You need to tell her these things. She feels like you two are getting distant-"
"Can you tell WHY?"
I think I just really needed a good cry. I just want to scream and let all my frustration from the last month out.
I DON'T DRINK. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO DESIRE TO. YES, I'VE BEEN DRUNK. I DON'T FUCKING ENJOY IT. GET THE HELL OVER IT AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE ABOUT IT.
And Heather is really starting to piss me off with the weight loss thing. We were on this 4 mile walk around her neighborhood and it was a time when I was just starting to work out more (which I do because it's fun). I start saying how happy I am that I can feel that I'm healthier and how I'm finally happy with my body image. My sister's amazing and "supportive" response?
"You know you're still overweight, right?"
What...
The...
FUCK?
I'VE JUST TOLD YOU, for like the FIRST time in my LIFE that I'm HAPPY with my body, and THAT'S all you say to me?
Okay well...15 minutes after I typed that last sentence because I had to have a little crying session...
My mom saw me crying to, so of course she's all "comforting".
"She said she just wants to be sure you're having a good time and meeting people, we've talked about it before."
"Well I DO meet people and I normally have a good time. It's just that I meet the people who also don't drink. Heather's got to realize that I am not her. I may have looked up to her, and I may value her opinion, but it's not because I thought she was 'cool' because she drank in college or because she partied. It's because she has a great career and she studied her way through a masters degree. Professionally, she inspires me. Socially, we're incredibly different."
"And as far as your weight, well, she worries about you. She used to be heavier and now she's obsessed with losing weight."
"And she doesn't need to. She's beautiful! It's just that for the first time in my LIFE I was happy about the way I looked and she just shot that down because she's not satisfied with herself."
"You need to tell her these things. She feels like you two are getting distant-"
"Can you tell WHY?"
I think I just really needed a good cry. I just want to scream and let all my frustration from the last month out.