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There is a feeling that I get when I listen to a certain song. The feeling and remembrance of a time past. A time when all I could feel was complete alertness and awareness of my surroundings and of what I am doing and who I am.
Today I just wish that I could go back and relive those moments and feel those same feelings.
There is a time not so long ago that I am missing. Sad to say it was a time when things seemed terrible...maybe I was wrong about that. Maybe those were the best of times. Maybe the times that I felt were the best were actually the worst. I'm remembering the drive home from Modesto every day during the semester that I spent at MJC. For some reason I thought so clearly in my car driving down the country roads during sun set. I would watch the sun go down and by the time I got home it would be dark.
I wish that I could have those drives again.
There is so much going on that I am unsure of where to go. I don't know which path to choose, but I think that I'm on the right one.
I've lost another lover due to my busy life style.
An old ghost is making its way back into my life. The strangest thing ever last night.
There is so much to say. Lately everything that I've written in here has been for me. People tend to not read long entries and maybe that's not such a bad thing.
But if you could all feel what I feel right now...you would understand my mind and my heart.
Today I just wish that I could go back and relive those moments and feel those same feelings.
There is a time not so long ago that I am missing. Sad to say it was a time when things seemed terrible...maybe I was wrong about that. Maybe those were the best of times. Maybe the times that I felt were the best were actually the worst. I'm remembering the drive home from Modesto every day during the semester that I spent at MJC. For some reason I thought so clearly in my car driving down the country roads during sun set. I would watch the sun go down and by the time I got home it would be dark.
I wish that I could have those drives again.
There is so much going on that I am unsure of where to go. I don't know which path to choose, but I think that I'm on the right one.
I've lost another lover due to my busy life style.
An old ghost is making its way back into my life. The strangest thing ever last night.
There is so much to say. Lately everything that I've written in here has been for me. People tend to not read long entries and maybe that's not such a bad thing.
But if you could all feel what I feel right now...you would understand my mind and my heart.