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id just like to say: fuck the old triangle.
it sucks. i'm selling my labour. gaddamnit. i am so alienated from my mode of production. not to mention the awful people i have to work with.
Tonight, "mo" (aka mohammad, the 24 yearold) told me about how before work, in her van, he exploited a 16 year old girl from his highschool (hes %50 older than her) with pot to get "just a blowjob before work" - hes upgrading. He repeatedly referred to her as 'bitch' and 'pussy'. i almost heaved, but instead, i said "that cool. i gotta go upstairs," and went to wash dishes and ponder the realities of class division. i am so weak - maybe im just too sensitive a guy to not think of girls as other people. i should have told him that i dont give two shits about his std-spreading sexploits, and that he can keep his dirty stories to himself - but instead, i marginalized my own feelings and pretended to think it was okay, even cool. how awful. im going to go play a video game through which i can feel ive actually accomplished something. sometimes, life sucks the life out of you.
then sleep for ten hours. dreams are superior to reality - at all times. although theres lots to be said for the good parts - the bad parts can crush you sometimes.
-B
it sucks. i'm selling my labour. gaddamnit. i am so alienated from my mode of production. not to mention the awful people i have to work with.
Tonight, "mo" (aka mohammad, the 24 yearold) told me about how before work, in her van, he exploited a 16 year old girl from his highschool (hes %50 older than her) with pot to get "just a blowjob before work" - hes upgrading. He repeatedly referred to her as 'bitch' and 'pussy'. i almost heaved, but instead, i said "that cool. i gotta go upstairs," and went to wash dishes and ponder the realities of class division. i am so weak - maybe im just too sensitive a guy to not think of girls as other people. i should have told him that i dont give two shits about his std-spreading sexploits, and that he can keep his dirty stories to himself - but instead, i marginalized my own feelings and pretended to think it was okay, even cool. how awful. im going to go play a video game through which i can feel ive actually accomplished something. sometimes, life sucks the life out of you.
then sleep for ten hours. dreams are superior to reality - at all times. although theres lots to be said for the good parts - the bad parts can crush you sometimes.
-B