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[_ebin_]

this is not adressed to anyone at all. this is for the world and humanity at large.

i fucking hate how circular everything is. as soon as you escape one cycle, you get yourself into another, and another and another. you live, you die. you win you lose. you remember you forget. you earn, you spend. it all seems so fucking pointless. maybe the fleeting meaning television provides is all there is. it seems like all we do is eat, sleep, ruin the things we don't understand or know how to interact with, worry, obsess, question those things we previously affirmed, and kill time waiting for something better to come along. what a fucking sham life is. up, down, sideways, who fucking cares. rain shine, fly, sink. no one should ever lay themselves out on a line. its not worth the hassle. the only thing thats worthwhile (i thought) was selfishenss. nope. selflessness didnt work out. turns out selfishness is no better. fuck. fuck everything. how can i have invested so much in nothing? i dont fucking know. this post is selfish. fuck you for caring.
its walking outside. im going for a rain.