oh, woe is me...
All I have to say is TGImotherfuckingF!!!! this week could not have gone by any slower, but thank the lords above for giving us weekends away from school! (although i have a NHS carwash tom and hw to do sunday) I just feel so overwhelmed by school, i think its the weather. Its so nice out and I want ot be outside at the ebach or at a park doing something, anything. Who wants to be inside, let alone school, on such a beautiful day?!
I am exhausted because I cant fall asleep at night...I get one thought in my head and then it leads to another thought and before you know it, its 2:00 AM and Im thinking about what I'm going to wear the next day (really that morning now) and so on. grr...
Another weird thing I've noticed about myself is that i "overthink" about stupid things I shouldnt even think about. Its soo aggravating and confusing. Like I'll go do to something and not even realize what or why or the effect of it until while I'm doing it. It feels like Im just floating around on a cloud, oblivious to everything. i dont know, im weird...
Yesterday, I was over Erin's house sitting shiva (did I spell that right?) for her uncle howie. It was sad, I never saw her dad sad before and I felt so bad for him and Fay. I love hanging out with Erin though, its just so easy and carefree. And she turns me on to some great music! I heart Erin! But all day yesterday I felt really weird, out of it, i dont know why. I wish I could just clear my mind of a bunch of extra shit thats been hanging over my head. Like in that movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Like I just want to erase some people and events from my mind, i wish it were that easy...On a lighter note I am very thankful for the friends and people in my life that are constantly there for me, you know who you are, and i love you for always listening to me vent.
I'll sign off by saying,
~Make love, not war~
I am exhausted because I cant fall asleep at night...I get one thought in my head and then it leads to another thought and before you know it, its 2:00 AM and Im thinking about what I'm going to wear the next day (really that morning now) and so on. grr...
Another weird thing I've noticed about myself is that i "overthink" about stupid things I shouldnt even think about. Its soo aggravating and confusing. Like I'll go do to something and not even realize what or why or the effect of it until while I'm doing it. It feels like Im just floating around on a cloud, oblivious to everything. i dont know, im weird...
Yesterday, I was over Erin's house sitting shiva (did I spell that right?) for her uncle howie. It was sad, I never saw her dad sad before and I felt so bad for him and Fay. I love hanging out with Erin though, its just so easy and carefree. And she turns me on to some great music! I heart Erin! But all day yesterday I felt really weird, out of it, i dont know why. I wish I could just clear my mind of a bunch of extra shit thats been hanging over my head. Like in that movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Like I just want to erase some people and events from my mind, i wish it were that easy...On a lighter note I am very thankful for the friends and people in my life that are constantly there for me, you know who you are, and i love you for always listening to me vent.
I'll sign off by saying,
~Make love, not war~