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so, being a senior isn't all its cracked up to be. Don't get me wrong, i am having the best ride of my life this year, i love my friends, and we always have a blast, but there is this void. I guess, i like looking up to people, going to people for advice because they had to go through it too. And i still talk to people from school online sometimes, but thats completely different. For those of you who know me a little too well, you know the void i am feeling. And some can relate and others are just f-ing oblivious. i hate memories, or rememories, or whatever that shit aaronoson tries to feed us. (i love you rusty!) i wish we could just have a clean slate at the end of each year, and wipe our memories clean of past people and events. i guess this sounds kinda f-ed up, but "I'm just a fucked up girl, trying to find her own piece of mind." I've been having these weird dreams lately, and i cant tell them to my therapist, bc she isnt that kinda therapist, but i wanna know what thjey all mean. Anyone have Dr. Monroe's phone number? each dream is sooo amazing taht i hate waking up, maybe thats why i have been sleeping so much lately, that or mono? i feel like im that little dude in the ditch with the boulder who is trying to get out of the ditch and get close to the top and then roll back down. ugh. EE is done, WL2 done, im half done with all this crap, after this week i'll be good. I have to get through my ToK paper, Group 5, and my spanish oral. Then i can celebrate my 18th on the cruise with my buddies and enjoy the rest of the year....hopefully.