Sore ankles and a wet ass is all i got out of this.....

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Let me fill you in on my weekend. Yesterday I went ice skating with kendra, keith, cory, jared, and heather. I had a lot of fun and officially love ice skating. Kendra insisted that cory was starting to like me but thats of no importance to me b/c I don’t like him. Just as a friend and nothin else. I’m don’t want a relationship for a while. I want nothing to do with them. Thats one thing I will never understand, how people put themselves through such HELL for someone at such a young age. What is a relationship at my age anyhow, whats its purpose? I despise relationships. There a waste of my time and energy. What do u do in a relationship, u bend over backwards to make someone happy, at one point in time u’ll fight, u spend ur money on them, u kiss them or maybe go even farther and then u’ll break up with them, for what?? Personal satisfaction?? B/c u just wanna be loved??? B/c u wanna b popular/noticed?? If your searching for personal satisfaction, masturbate. If you want love, buy a puppy. If you wanna be popular take a bath. Why have a relationship and go through all that bother when u can have a one night stand and still get the same feeling. Don’t get me wrong sex and all that stuff is great I’m sure but come on now don’t you find this relationship stuff to b a lil much. I mean why should I spend my money on u when I can buy myself this CD over here. And why should I just love u when theres a whole world for me too love, at one time.I just hate relationships. I hate the whole pet name thing too like sweetheart, and babydoll, and baby, and honey. It just makes me wanna b like damn it my names Nicole call me that! Thats what I’ve been answering to for the last 15 years. And if I’m in a relationship and I call u a pet name its only b/c I want somethin TRUST ME. I’m not lieing thats the only reason i’ll call u the man I love or honey or anything. I probably just want something. I also hate the whole ownership thing like, “hey thats blahblahblahs girlfriend,” or “hey theres .....woman,” or my personal favorite,”hey soandsos bitch” No one owns me. I am my own person and my own boss. You can’t tell me what to do b/c god gave me 2 ears so that ur words could go through one and come out the other. Don’t get me wrong kissing and sex and all that is great but do we really need the detication and commitment to go along with it. Not to mention the responsibility for my actions that will make you mad eventually b/c I don’t know how to control them. Quite frankly relationships are too much work and responsibility for me.

Today I went with Kendra, keith, jared, heather, and cory riding four-wheelers. It was a lot of fun. I found out with happened in the closet and now I literally wanna puke. I’m not exaggerating. But yea other then that I had a lot of fun. Well I guess I’ll update later. Nothin else really to say.

P.S. James Hetfield is gorgeous!!!!!! I'd fuck him in a heartbeat!!!