CRY !
OKAY .excuse my spelling on this entry. im crying so hard i can barely even see the screen.
LONG STORY !, so if you dont want to hear my problems dont read this !
alright this weekend was GREAT ! everything i could ask for. i went to the GR game with Jenny and met up with Steven there. we had a blast and then i went back to Jennys for the night and boy i love that girl shes hilarious and i just had a great time with her. the next day , (homewith at GR) Gina and Jill both came over to Jennys house. Gina did my hair and i got all ready and stuff. had a great time there too. came home finished getting ready and then Steven came and picked me up went back to his house ate dinner then headed off to the dance, it was a blast besides me getting sick well i already was sick but i felt even worse for a period of time. i couldnt have had a better night that night . it was just great. on sunday went over to annas house talked with her for a couple hours came home and takled to Steven until my mother got home. thats where it ALL starts. my mom comes home and sits down and tells me to tell her about the dance on saturday, so i do then she brings up basketball. which is not very fun right now she goes 'Katlin grandpa told me you didnt play to much at your game on friday' and i didnt i played a max of two minutes. but honestly , i dont think im that horrible of a player to be sitting THAT long .but i might be wrong. i mean i know my shooting isnt the best, and that my dribbling could be a little better but still i think i work as hard as everyone else and that i play well. so when my mother brings that up i start crying. crying over nothing. she goes whats a matter Katlin ?? did you and Steven get in a fight ? which makes me cry even harder, even though me and him are perfectly fine and could never be better . she goes do you think Steven doesnt love you? , which i know he does but thinking about it makes me cry as hard as i can, my eyes turn red and my face beat red, my eyes become puffy from me wiping my tears so much i dont know what it was but no matter what she mentioned even if it wasnt true or anything i would just cry harder and harder . iver gone through a whole box of tissue and i cant see sraight. and i cant figure out why im crying so bad . nothings going bad in my life yeah i dont play that often but i have the best people in the world on my team. they are always so funny and they keep me happy. i couldnt ask for a better team . but i think i know what it is thats bothering me so bad. but i dont know why it is. it has NOTHING to do with me. so here it is .as i was on the phone with Steven he was telling me about his cousin Jeff whos 16 now and is a horrible child . he does it fro attention though. so his father can pay attention to him even though he doesnt and how Jeffs sister barely talks or anything because of her father because their father pretty much just doesnt care about them and pays no attention to them. and it makes me think about how i feel with my dad. how i feel like in his family im nothing but the first child . the child that goes over there and the only speaking i get to is either o clean or to get yelled at for something ive done wrong. and i try my hardest to be a good kid and its never enough. my dad doesnt care if i got a 4.0 or not all's he cares about is if the trash is taken out and his office is cleaned. well im tried of it, i dont want to be like that anymore. okay well im heading off to bed, goodnight everyone and sorry for wasting your time if you read this
Amanda Bagozzi- im truly sorry my dear, words were exchanged that i really didnt mean i havent been myself lately and im not sure whats wrong with me. your a lovely girl and have a great personality if ANYONE had a problem with you they were crazy ! and they dont know the real you, im so glad we became close this year and everything .so many great times already , again im sorry !