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I'm sorry I haven't been around. I was filming in Canada when my father took a turn for the worse. For those that don't know, my father passed away at the age of 72. He was really, as I've been saying lately, a cool cat.
I haven't been in close contact with my family for many years due to a lot of reasons that I don't want to go into here. But I made my peace with my father. It doesn't erase all the years that he was absent, all the things he missed. But it also doesn't mean that even though he wasn't a perfect dad that I loved him any less. Or that I don't mourn his passing every minute since it happened. I'm still halfway between being in shock, and regretting all the things I "should have said, or should have done". But you can't change the past.
This has hit me a lot harder then many would think. And I'm sorry, I realize that I owe a lot of people phone calls, and that I really should take the time and write a more detailed post of what's going on with me. But I just don't have it in me.
Cam, Justin, if you're around, I could really use your love and support right now.
Thanks everyone, for just listening.
I haven't been in close contact with my family for many years due to a lot of reasons that I don't want to go into here. But I made my peace with my father. It doesn't erase all the years that he was absent, all the things he missed. But it also doesn't mean that even though he wasn't a perfect dad that I loved him any less. Or that I don't mourn his passing every minute since it happened. I'm still halfway between being in shock, and regretting all the things I "should have said, or should have done". But you can't change the past.
This has hit me a lot harder then many would think. And I'm sorry, I realize that I owe a lot of people phone calls, and that I really should take the time and write a more detailed post of what's going on with me. But I just don't have it in me.
Cam, Justin, if you're around, I could really use your love and support right now.
Thanks everyone, for just listening.