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Today is odd. Mixed. Happy and sickness.
Not the kinda sick where you feel like throwing up. The kind where your tummy is in knots and nothing feels safe.
My dog Toby had a seziure last night and were waiting for the test results to come back in. I'm so worried that he'll have somthing really wrong with him and we will have to put him down. I don't even know what I would do here without him. For four years he has been my best friend, my closest friend. There has been more than one night I've come home feeling worse than I can remember and having him there.
I guess I shouldn't assume the worst. He's home with me now, and that's what matters.
On that note, I'm trying to live in the now as much as I can. This last weekend was a blast. It was luke's 18th birthday on friday so we went to the strip club. Then I went to the U after the club and drank with some buddies. Then Nick and myself had subway for breakfest and I took the bus home. Then I slept at luke's and we Left for the casino on sunday morning. We saw a Buddy Holly show and I won a little money. Then we got drunk and high at the hotel and it was good. Then we left for home.
I worked today. It was okay.
I can't help but come once again in my thoughts to the fact that I have been single for four years now, with almost nothing happening in those years. I can't help but wonder if it is somthing about me? I don't think im super hot, but I don't feel I'm bad looking? Hell, Someday's I KNOW I look better than 80% of the other men I see with mismatched, odd fitting crap they just throw on. I Know I'm funny and a nice guy. I try to be. I know that I'm fun to be around because most people don't fake smile that good. SO what the fuck? Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough.
No school this week. That's nice.
Don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in.
Not the kinda sick where you feel like throwing up. The kind where your tummy is in knots and nothing feels safe.
My dog Toby had a seziure last night and were waiting for the test results to come back in. I'm so worried that he'll have somthing really wrong with him and we will have to put him down. I don't even know what I would do here without him. For four years he has been my best friend, my closest friend. There has been more than one night I've come home feeling worse than I can remember and having him there.
I guess I shouldn't assume the worst. He's home with me now, and that's what matters.
On that note, I'm trying to live in the now as much as I can. This last weekend was a blast. It was luke's 18th birthday on friday so we went to the strip club. Then I went to the U after the club and drank with some buddies. Then Nick and myself had subway for breakfest and I took the bus home. Then I slept at luke's and we Left for the casino on sunday morning. We saw a Buddy Holly show and I won a little money. Then we got drunk and high at the hotel and it was good. Then we left for home.
I worked today. It was okay.
I can't help but come once again in my thoughts to the fact that I have been single for four years now, with almost nothing happening in those years. I can't help but wonder if it is somthing about me? I don't think im super hot, but I don't feel I'm bad looking? Hell, Someday's I KNOW I look better than 80% of the other men I see with mismatched, odd fitting crap they just throw on. I Know I'm funny and a nice guy. I try to be. I know that I'm fun to be around because most people don't fake smile that good. SO what the fuck? Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough.
No school this week. That's nice.
Don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in.