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So it's time...
This past Saturday, I changed. I was up in boston and I met up with emily and we were chatting and I was saying how much I hated M&E and she kind of asked me out of the blue what my plan was. I had no response. It was at that time I realized it was time to stop just being a worker and go out and get a degree... not necessarily a degree but... I need the piece of paper saying I'm qualified at something. Because where Im at now doesn't make me happy, and I'm more or less at the pinnacle of where this job is going to take me. Sure I make good money... but it's time for me to grow up and more or less "DO WORK". I chatted with my mom tonight and she agreed, and mentioned how she and dad were talking about it the other day, and said that she had hoped I'd find myself sooner or later. Though I don't necessarily show it, I'm a very scared individual... when I find a comfort place I dwell there until my resources are dry and then with motivation, I move on... I feel like I'm ready now. The time I took to work and grow up has been a huge step to take me here. Now is the time to find what I want to do and start stepping toward it. I'm going to start small and try to gain up the "school stamina" I lost over the last couple of years. I'm probably just going to attend community college to take some courses... like I said start small... and then if all goes well maybe transfer to a state school? I don't know, this is all still new to me, VERY new. I'm scared of failure, but I feel like I have confidence in that the courses I would take are things I'll care about because theyre taking me toward the goals I want to achieve... and won't be like highschool, I hope. I'm thinking about doing communications, or marketing/advertising... I don't know, but I want something to do with people, and preferably, little math as possible.
In other news, possible dating material at wheaton? ohh la la, I'm excited :)
This past Saturday, I changed. I was up in boston and I met up with emily and we were chatting and I was saying how much I hated M&E and she kind of asked me out of the blue what my plan was. I had no response. It was at that time I realized it was time to stop just being a worker and go out and get a degree... not necessarily a degree but... I need the piece of paper saying I'm qualified at something. Because where Im at now doesn't make me happy, and I'm more or less at the pinnacle of where this job is going to take me. Sure I make good money... but it's time for me to grow up and more or less "DO WORK". I chatted with my mom tonight and she agreed, and mentioned how she and dad were talking about it the other day, and said that she had hoped I'd find myself sooner or later. Though I don't necessarily show it, I'm a very scared individual... when I find a comfort place I dwell there until my resources are dry and then with motivation, I move on... I feel like I'm ready now. The time I took to work and grow up has been a huge step to take me here. Now is the time to find what I want to do and start stepping toward it. I'm going to start small and try to gain up the "school stamina" I lost over the last couple of years. I'm probably just going to attend community college to take some courses... like I said start small... and then if all goes well maybe transfer to a state school? I don't know, this is all still new to me, VERY new. I'm scared of failure, but I feel like I have confidence in that the courses I would take are things I'll care about because theyre taking me toward the goals I want to achieve... and won't be like highschool, I hope. I'm thinking about doing communications, or marketing/advertising... I don't know, but I want something to do with people, and preferably, little math as possible.
In other news, possible dating material at wheaton? ohh la la, I'm excited :)