Drawing
Through everything that I've done, the one thing thats always stood in my way has been drawing, I've never managed to master it beyond straight line shapes. If there's one skill which I'd love to master would be being able to draw something. I know its the typical sort of request from someone in the fandom, but if everyone is allowed one wish, for me it has to be that at this moment in time.
Okay okay so I can draw to a certain extent, but my problem runs from I cant draw what I want to draw, I can sit and do architectural drawings all day if i wanted to, along with basic vanishing point things. What I cant master are organic forms, specifically the human form. Proportion and anatomy I'm not too bad at, what irks me every time is that I can't draw people and other natural things that aren't 0, 90 or 180 degrees to the view point, put something at 45 degrees and it all goes batshit insane on the page, thats the worst part for me.
The usual word batted around about now is practice. Admittedly thats my failing, I don't practice enough, but whenever I do practice I run headlong into something massively over scaled for the level of skill which I have currently, which only serves to fuel an anger and irritation which I have towards drawing to begin with due to the seeming lack of progression. Another bit which irritates me is the bit where I'll have happily drawn something, then look at it and instantly notice all the problems with it, or get to a point and realize that its not working to some extent or another.
Admittedly I have little suitable privacy without parents prying into what I'm doing, and for me drawing is a personal thing. I don't want others to see it, until either i choose when or I've decided that its good enough to share. The best things I've drawn have been either late at night, or tucked away in the loft where I'm free to doodle whenever I like.
When it comes down to it I'm regularly a jack of all trades, and to this date, master of none. I can do bits and pieces of everything, which in many ways is my most redeeming quality. The areas i want to progress in happen to be those that require a reasonable ability draw, things such as graphics and other media related fields. Its the main reason I never looked into art and the like, I knew drawing was a bit part of them and that I'd never be able to show my potential if its held back by an undeveloped ability to draw.
I haven't got a way of working out how to quite get over this hurdle, so I'm just going to end this here.
Okay okay so I can draw to a certain extent, but my problem runs from I cant draw what I want to draw, I can sit and do architectural drawings all day if i wanted to, along with basic vanishing point things. What I cant master are organic forms, specifically the human form. Proportion and anatomy I'm not too bad at, what irks me every time is that I can't draw people and other natural things that aren't 0, 90 or 180 degrees to the view point, put something at 45 degrees and it all goes batshit insane on the page, thats the worst part for me.
The usual word batted around about now is practice. Admittedly thats my failing, I don't practice enough, but whenever I do practice I run headlong into something massively over scaled for the level of skill which I have currently, which only serves to fuel an anger and irritation which I have towards drawing to begin with due to the seeming lack of progression. Another bit which irritates me is the bit where I'll have happily drawn something, then look at it and instantly notice all the problems with it, or get to a point and realize that its not working to some extent or another.
Admittedly I have little suitable privacy without parents prying into what I'm doing, and for me drawing is a personal thing. I don't want others to see it, until either i choose when or I've decided that its good enough to share. The best things I've drawn have been either late at night, or tucked away in the loft where I'm free to doodle whenever I like.
When it comes down to it I'm regularly a jack of all trades, and to this date, master of none. I can do bits and pieces of everything, which in many ways is my most redeeming quality. The areas i want to progress in happen to be those that require a reasonable ability draw, things such as graphics and other media related fields. Its the main reason I never looked into art and the like, I knew drawing was a bit part of them and that I'd never be able to show my potential if its held back by an undeveloped ability to draw.
I haven't got a way of working out how to quite get over this hurdle, so I'm just going to end this here.