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ok wow im soo confused ... me and luke havent been getting along that good lately.. i keep screwing up all the time i really dont want to lose him again i love him soo much ... i cant take it anymore.. i dont know wat to do we always fight about stupid things and its always cuz of me! god i hate me sometimes.. god damn im soo confused.. i hate it ok i talked to luke yesterday for like 5 minutes and then we got in alittle fight and didnt talk anymore so i just talked to joe his friend.. and idk.. and i havent talked to luke at all today but its still early in the day i think that i really need to think about things .. i ve been crying way to god dAMN much lately and its all moslty cuz of me and luke.. we broke last thursday and then we got back toghter saturday and we didnt fight for awhile untill like tuesday idk ... GOD!! why do things have to be soo god damn compilcated.. all the god damn time.. I HATE IT.. well yesterday we put my boat in and i went tubbing and tanned out side i gotta alitlle more tan yes!! haha wow and me lost my dog for like 20 minutes then we found her she was hidding in my boat in some spot lol... today i dont know wat to do there having fire works on my lake... which is gonna be sweet!! i wish i could just talk to luke and tell him how i feel and shit but im too scared that he will not care..yeah soo i did want luke to come over today cuz i havent seen him sense monday.. but i dont know i really hope that we will be ok and still be toghter for alot longer its been like 1 month it will be 2 months the 19 of july.. wow i never thought we would make it this farr.. even though we broke like 3 times but each time was for like 1 hour the longest was for 3 days.. god damn i miss all my friends soo much i havent really hung out with anyone cuz of like skating shit and my mom taking my cell away but got it back then like i dont know god my life is just falling apart i really need to start thinking about things and i really need to change badly.. well im gonna go cuz im bored and my mom should be home sooooonn...I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

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