new life?
k so i finally got the hell outta the house, and everytime i do, i happen to get trashed. so...i got drunk last night. lol
caught up with alot of old friends, and started talking with new people.
they'll all cool in my book, so i guess i've got new friends. hopefully this will mean i get out more, instead of wasting away infront of a screen.
i finally got a chance to talk to kyle. he hadnt changed. he was never the type to let things hold him down. it's what i admired about him. he never let his emotions show, and never got emotional. he claimed he'd lost my number and had been doing nothing but work and sleep. and yet... he managed to tell me a quick story about one of his trips to a strip joint. -rolls eyes-
our convos have gone from things like:
11/27/04
kyle (6:21:15 PM): i want to hold you and squeeze you and love you until your big pretty little eyes pop out of your head so i can pick them up and put them in my pocket and keep them forever and ever
we had begun to talk less and less because of his move, and then out of the blue...
02/05/05
kyle(6:49:41 PM): *sneaks around the corner and comes up behind you and covers your eyes*
me (6:49:51 PM): -smiles-
kyle (6:50:23 PM): and how are you?
me (6:50:31 PM): fine. and you?
kyle (6:51:11 PM): quite well
kyle(6:51:14 PM): for the most part
kyle (6:51:40 PM): what have you been up too?
me (6:52:08 PM): just been trying to get through each day...
kyle (6:52:32 PM): you and me both
me (6:52:49 PM): i've missed you
kyle (6:53:54 PM): well we've always had that in common
me (6:55:03 PM): yeah...but you kinda disappeared
kyle (6:55:12 PM): more than you know
kyle (6:55:50 PM): i got scheduled for 17 days straight, no days off or anything
kyle (6:55:53 PM): i worked and slept
kyle (6:56:35 PM): and i have day off...ya
kyle (6:56:37 PM): yay**
kyle (6:56:43 PM): today**
me (6:57:25 PM): nice
kyle (6:57:36 PM): somewhat
kyle (6:57:43 PM): i have to leave here to go pick up spires soon
me (6:58:12 PM): oh
me (6:58:49 PM): i'm going for my GED and my liscence next week
kyle (6:58:59 PM): *gives you a hug and kiss*
kyle (6:59:07 PM): good luck for everything
kyle (6:59:18 PM): not that you'll need it...but it's there
kyle (6:59:19 PM): lol
me (7:00:14 PM): yeah..
kyle (7:00:30 PM): are you worried about it at all?
me (7:00:36 PM): not really...
me (7:00:56 PM): the GED they said i'd need atleast an 8th grade reading level
me (7:01:06 PM): all i do is read
kyle (7:01:16 PM): rofl
me (7:01:28 PM): and as for driving, that's nothing. driving out of state 3times
kyle (7:01:29 PM): well you shouldn't have any problem with that
me (7:02:40 PM): so besides work and sleep, how've you been?
kyle (7:04:03 PM): i've been good
kyle (7:04:08 PM): dealing with a shit load of drama
kyle (7:04:11 PM): but it's all good
kyle (7:04:17 PM): got in a fight with bobby last night
me (7:04:47 PM): must've been fun
kyle (7:05:22 PM): no
kyle (7:05:24 PM): not at all
kyle (7:05:33 PM): the under side of my jaw is swolen
me (7:05:34 PM): sarcasm, hun
kyle (7:05:38 PM): i know dear
kyle (7:05:48 PM): i can't turn my head to the left
me (7:07:50 PM): i know you're not one for emotional stuff, but... i need to know, why havent you called or anything? it wouldnt kill you to pick up a phone for 5min
kyle (7:08:42 PM): probably because i don't have your number
kyle (7:08:51 PM): i had it...
me (7:10:14 PM): well i figured you would've still had it, when you made that call with your sister's phone that day
kyle (7:12:19 PM): i thought i asked you for it?
kyle (7:12:23 PM): anywayssssssssssss
kyle (7:12:33 PM): give me your dag gone digits
me (7:12:43 PM): -edited-
kyle (7:12:51 PM): with the quickness
kyle (7:12:55 PM): woosaaa
me (7:13:00 PM): cute
kyle (7:13:18 PM): you lie
me (7:13:24 PM): i tell no lies.
kyle (7:14:01 PM): queef
me (7:14:17 PM): asshole
kyle (7:14:58 PM): ewwww
kyle (7:15:02 PM): an asshole queef?
kyle (7:15:10 PM): do you have any idea how bad that would smell?
kyle (7:15:19 PM): depending on the type of asshole
me (7:15:26 PM): like shit, i'm sure. but i was calling you, an asshole.
kyle (7:15:31 PM): oh
kyle (7:15:33 PM): well in that case
kyle (7:16:14 PM): why am i this asshole, that you speak so fondly of?
me (7:17:03 PM): you disappear from my life for more than a month, and you return making me smile with our old jokes.
kyle (7:17:45 PM): well....is there something else that i should do instead?
kyle (7:18:57 PM): *waits on a final answer*
kyle (7:19:02 PM): would you like to use your life line?
me (7:19:14 PM): shut up. i've just missed you like hell
kyle (7:19:21 PM): well then smile pokey
me (7:20:29 PM): i have.
kyle (7:21:06 PM): come on...i want my moneys worth here
me (7:21:21 PM): lol huh?
kyle (7:21:28 PM): lol
kyle (7:22:09 PM): lol...i said that at the strip club the other weekend....i gave the stripper a dollar..and she was leaving and i yelled at her and told her i wanted my moneys worth
kyle (7:22:25 PM): rofl...needless to say i was kindly escorted out of the building
me (7:22:39 PM): ...i see
kyle (7:23:07 PM): *hugs you*
me (7:23:34 PM): -snuggles into your chest-
me (7:28:35 PM): i've decided to stay in SC as much as i hate it here. i might start school for business marketing. looking into promoting music, and possibly producing music. i'm going to intern at one of the studios here....atleast i hope they'll let me tag along.
kyle (7:29:02 PM): sounds like a good plan
me (7:29:16 PM): yeah i just hope it goes as planned.
kyle (7:29:28 PM): no reason it shouldn't
kyle (7:29:29 PM): right/
me (7:29:57 PM): i still plan on going to cali for atleast 2weeks. i need a break from here. i feel as if i'm trapped, but i'm free to go where i please. i just have nowhere to go.
kyle (7:30:46 PM): well said
kyle (7:30:50 PM): are you workin anywhere?
me (7:31:33 PM): that greek resturaunt i started at let me go after a week cause they didnt really need me. but along with my GED, and my liscence next week, i'm hoping to find a job.
kyle (7:32:01 PM): well that's good
me (7:32:03 PM): once i have a steady job for a month, my parents are giving me the car i went to see you with.
kyle (7:32:40 PM): cool
kyle (7:32:47 PM): i'm still trying to fix my car
kyle (7:33:03 PM): i ordered a whole bunch of parts last month
kyle (7:33:10 PM): put them on...and it didn't really help a whole lot
me (7:33:19 PM): lol
kyle (7:34:59 PM): so i'm lookin to buy a car
kyle (7:35:11 PM): ....we'll see how that turns otu
kyle (7:35:14 PM): out***
me (7:35:21 PM): well good luck with that
kyle (7:35:25 PM): thankya
me (7:37:18 PM): circuit city still fun for ya?
kyle (7:37:34 PM): hell yeah
kyle (7:37:40 PM): i got moved to a diff department
kyle (7:37:42 PM): got a raise
me (7:39:05 PM): noice
kyle (7:39:17 PM): shit you ain't lyin
kyle (7:39:20 PM): i'm sellin tvs now
kyle (7:39:22 PM): go me
me (7:39:26 PM): lol
kyle (7:40:37 PM): yayayaya
kyle (7:40:46 PM): my pay checks have been lookin pretty good
kyle (7:40:48 PM): ewan says hi
me (7:40:52 PM): pft
me (7:41:02 PM): he's a coniving asshole.
me (7:41:40 PM): he tried calling me an arrogant bitch just last week, and thinks he could apologize.
kyle (7:41:41 PM): care to share?
me (7:42:04 PM): thing is he didnt aim it directly at me, but felt the need to make a thread about it.
kyle (7:42:13 PM): ahhhhh
kyle (7:42:19 PM): oh how i miss the internet life
me (7:43:46 PM): eh. i've grown bored with it weeks ago.
kyle (7:43:54 PM): i would assume so
me (7:44:57 PM): vero is s'posed to come stay with me next friday before she goes to stay with her bf. and dave promised he'd come see me, i dunno when though.
kyle (7:45:51 PM): that's cool
me (7:46:13 PM): yeah, i cant believe valentine's day is a week away already...
kyle (7:46:26 PM): yeah i know
kyle (7:46:30 PM): i'm asking for that day off
kyle (7:46:45 PM): so i can sit in my apt...all day....by myself....and watch old kung fu movies
me (7:47:03 PM): sounds thrilling.
kyle (7:47:56 PM): you have no idea
me (7:48:08 PM): oh i'm pretty sure i do.
kyle (7:49:07 PM): lol
kyle (7:49:09 PM): smartass
me (7:49:21 PM): dont even act like you arent a smartass either.
kyle (7:49:34 PM): *gasp*
kyle (7:49:36 PM): i'm no such thing
me (7:49:42 PM): what a load.
kyle (7:51:14 PM): *hands you a towel*
kyle (7:51:15 PM): sorry
me (7:51:23 PM): lmao
kyle (7:51:36 PM): =P
me (7:51:43 PM): smartass
kyle (7:52:21 PM): -pulls off belt- that deserves a whoopin
kyle (7:52:32 PM): oh hellllll no
kyle (7:52:38 PM): *puts your belt back on*
kyle (7:52:44 PM): never thought i woudl ever dress a woman
me (7:52:48 PM): lol
kyle (7:53:04 PM): oooOOOOOoooooOOooOOooo....i smell foooooooooooooooooood
me (7:53:04 PM): i woulda thought you would prefer the undressed
kyle (7:53:05 PM): brb
me (7:53:13 PM): lmao never changed
i will always admit that i still love him. i know i shouldnt, and that i should move on. but he made a huge impact on my life. it was him that made me feel much better about myself. it was him that taught me i should be cocky and not deny the fact that i really am beautiful, inside and out. it was him, that helped me realize i needed to open my eyes and was there to hold my hand as i walked into reality. but his hand slipped from mine...
k enough mushy shit. after that i had gone out to a local show. met shawn and some other kids.as well as an old friend Lottie, she's such a doll. but a straight arrow. she's the complete opposite of me, and yet we're good friends. she's blonde, never drank, or smoke anything in her life. she's also one of the few virgins i know. lol
it felt good to be around familiar faces and new ones. i just hope things go the way i'd like for them to for once. something always comes up and i cant get anything done.
wtf @ this commercial...this local car dealer has a bunch of old people rapping "who's ya mama?" cause the dealership is called "mama's cars"
wow. i really do need to get the fuck outta here...
caught up with alot of old friends, and started talking with new people.
they'll all cool in my book, so i guess i've got new friends. hopefully this will mean i get out more, instead of wasting away infront of a screen.
i finally got a chance to talk to kyle. he hadnt changed. he was never the type to let things hold him down. it's what i admired about him. he never let his emotions show, and never got emotional. he claimed he'd lost my number and had been doing nothing but work and sleep. and yet... he managed to tell me a quick story about one of his trips to a strip joint. -rolls eyes-
our convos have gone from things like:
11/27/04
kyle (6:21:15 PM): i want to hold you and squeeze you and love you until your big pretty little eyes pop out of your head so i can pick them up and put them in my pocket and keep them forever and ever
we had begun to talk less and less because of his move, and then out of the blue...
02/05/05
kyle(6:49:41 PM): *sneaks around the corner and comes up behind you and covers your eyes*
me (6:49:51 PM): -smiles-
kyle (6:50:23 PM): and how are you?
me (6:50:31 PM): fine. and you?
kyle (6:51:11 PM): quite well
kyle(6:51:14 PM): for the most part
kyle (6:51:40 PM): what have you been up too?
me (6:52:08 PM): just been trying to get through each day...
kyle (6:52:32 PM): you and me both
me (6:52:49 PM): i've missed you
kyle (6:53:54 PM): well we've always had that in common
me (6:55:03 PM): yeah...but you kinda disappeared
kyle (6:55:12 PM): more than you know
kyle (6:55:50 PM): i got scheduled for 17 days straight, no days off or anything
kyle (6:55:53 PM): i worked and slept
kyle (6:56:35 PM): and i have day off...ya
kyle (6:56:37 PM): yay**
kyle (6:56:43 PM): today**
me (6:57:25 PM): nice
kyle (6:57:36 PM): somewhat
kyle (6:57:43 PM): i have to leave here to go pick up spires soon
me (6:58:12 PM): oh
me (6:58:49 PM): i'm going for my GED and my liscence next week
kyle (6:58:59 PM): *gives you a hug and kiss*
kyle (6:59:07 PM): good luck for everything
kyle (6:59:18 PM): not that you'll need it...but it's there
kyle (6:59:19 PM): lol
me (7:00:14 PM): yeah..
kyle (7:00:30 PM): are you worried about it at all?
me (7:00:36 PM): not really...
me (7:00:56 PM): the GED they said i'd need atleast an 8th grade reading level
me (7:01:06 PM): all i do is read
kyle (7:01:16 PM): rofl
me (7:01:28 PM): and as for driving, that's nothing. driving out of state 3times
kyle (7:01:29 PM): well you shouldn't have any problem with that
me (7:02:40 PM): so besides work and sleep, how've you been?
kyle (7:04:03 PM): i've been good
kyle (7:04:08 PM): dealing with a shit load of drama
kyle (7:04:11 PM): but it's all good
kyle (7:04:17 PM): got in a fight with bobby last night
me (7:04:47 PM): must've been fun
kyle (7:05:22 PM): no
kyle (7:05:24 PM): not at all
kyle (7:05:33 PM): the under side of my jaw is swolen
me (7:05:34 PM): sarcasm, hun
kyle (7:05:38 PM): i know dear
kyle (7:05:48 PM): i can't turn my head to the left
me (7:07:50 PM): i know you're not one for emotional stuff, but... i need to know, why havent you called or anything? it wouldnt kill you to pick up a phone for 5min
kyle (7:08:42 PM): probably because i don't have your number
kyle (7:08:51 PM): i had it...
me (7:10:14 PM): well i figured you would've still had it, when you made that call with your sister's phone that day
kyle (7:12:19 PM): i thought i asked you for it?
kyle (7:12:23 PM): anywayssssssssssss
kyle (7:12:33 PM): give me your dag gone digits
me (7:12:43 PM): -edited-
kyle (7:12:51 PM): with the quickness
kyle (7:12:55 PM): woosaaa
me (7:13:00 PM): cute
kyle (7:13:18 PM): you lie
me (7:13:24 PM): i tell no lies.
kyle (7:14:01 PM): queef
me (7:14:17 PM): asshole
kyle (7:14:58 PM): ewwww
kyle (7:15:02 PM): an asshole queef?
kyle (7:15:10 PM): do you have any idea how bad that would smell?
kyle (7:15:19 PM): depending on the type of asshole
me (7:15:26 PM): like shit, i'm sure. but i was calling you, an asshole.
kyle (7:15:31 PM): oh
kyle (7:15:33 PM): well in that case
kyle (7:16:14 PM): why am i this asshole, that you speak so fondly of?
me (7:17:03 PM): you disappear from my life for more than a month, and you return making me smile with our old jokes.
kyle (7:17:45 PM): well....is there something else that i should do instead?
kyle (7:18:57 PM): *waits on a final answer*
kyle (7:19:02 PM): would you like to use your life line?
me (7:19:14 PM): shut up. i've just missed you like hell
kyle (7:19:21 PM): well then smile pokey
me (7:20:29 PM): i have.
kyle (7:21:06 PM): come on...i want my moneys worth here
me (7:21:21 PM): lol huh?
kyle (7:21:28 PM): lol
kyle (7:22:09 PM): lol...i said that at the strip club the other weekend....i gave the stripper a dollar..and she was leaving and i yelled at her and told her i wanted my moneys worth
kyle (7:22:25 PM): rofl...needless to say i was kindly escorted out of the building
me (7:22:39 PM): ...i see
kyle (7:23:07 PM): *hugs you*
me (7:23:34 PM): -snuggles into your chest-
me (7:28:35 PM): i've decided to stay in SC as much as i hate it here. i might start school for business marketing. looking into promoting music, and possibly producing music. i'm going to intern at one of the studios here....atleast i hope they'll let me tag along.
kyle (7:29:02 PM): sounds like a good plan
me (7:29:16 PM): yeah i just hope it goes as planned.
kyle (7:29:28 PM): no reason it shouldn't
kyle (7:29:29 PM): right/
me (7:29:57 PM): i still plan on going to cali for atleast 2weeks. i need a break from here. i feel as if i'm trapped, but i'm free to go where i please. i just have nowhere to go.
kyle (7:30:46 PM): well said
kyle (7:30:50 PM): are you workin anywhere?
me (7:31:33 PM): that greek resturaunt i started at let me go after a week cause they didnt really need me. but along with my GED, and my liscence next week, i'm hoping to find a job.
kyle (7:32:01 PM): well that's good
me (7:32:03 PM): once i have a steady job for a month, my parents are giving me the car i went to see you with.
kyle (7:32:40 PM): cool
kyle (7:32:47 PM): i'm still trying to fix my car
kyle (7:33:03 PM): i ordered a whole bunch of parts last month
kyle (7:33:10 PM): put them on...and it didn't really help a whole lot
me (7:33:19 PM): lol
kyle (7:34:59 PM): so i'm lookin to buy a car
kyle (7:35:11 PM): ....we'll see how that turns otu
kyle (7:35:14 PM): out***
me (7:35:21 PM): well good luck with that
kyle (7:35:25 PM): thankya
me (7:37:18 PM): circuit city still fun for ya?
kyle (7:37:34 PM): hell yeah
kyle (7:37:40 PM): i got moved to a diff department
kyle (7:37:42 PM): got a raise
me (7:39:05 PM): noice
kyle (7:39:17 PM): shit you ain't lyin
kyle (7:39:20 PM): i'm sellin tvs now
kyle (7:39:22 PM): go me
me (7:39:26 PM): lol
kyle (7:40:37 PM): yayayaya
kyle (7:40:46 PM): my pay checks have been lookin pretty good
kyle (7:40:48 PM): ewan says hi
me (7:40:52 PM): pft
me (7:41:02 PM): he's a coniving asshole.
me (7:41:40 PM): he tried calling me an arrogant bitch just last week, and thinks he could apologize.
kyle (7:41:41 PM): care to share?
me (7:42:04 PM): thing is he didnt aim it directly at me, but felt the need to make a thread about it.
kyle (7:42:13 PM): ahhhhh
kyle (7:42:19 PM): oh how i miss the internet life
me (7:43:46 PM): eh. i've grown bored with it weeks ago.
kyle (7:43:54 PM): i would assume so
me (7:44:57 PM): vero is s'posed to come stay with me next friday before she goes to stay with her bf. and dave promised he'd come see me, i dunno when though.
kyle (7:45:51 PM): that's cool
me (7:46:13 PM): yeah, i cant believe valentine's day is a week away already...
kyle (7:46:26 PM): yeah i know
kyle (7:46:30 PM): i'm asking for that day off
kyle (7:46:45 PM): so i can sit in my apt...all day....by myself....and watch old kung fu movies
me (7:47:03 PM): sounds thrilling.
kyle (7:47:56 PM): you have no idea
me (7:48:08 PM): oh i'm pretty sure i do.
kyle (7:49:07 PM): lol
kyle (7:49:09 PM): smartass
me (7:49:21 PM): dont even act like you arent a smartass either.
kyle (7:49:34 PM): *gasp*
kyle (7:49:36 PM): i'm no such thing
me (7:49:42 PM): what a load.
kyle (7:51:14 PM): *hands you a towel*
kyle (7:51:15 PM): sorry
me (7:51:23 PM): lmao
kyle (7:51:36 PM): =P
me (7:51:43 PM): smartass
kyle (7:52:21 PM): -pulls off belt- that deserves a whoopin
kyle (7:52:32 PM): oh hellllll no
kyle (7:52:38 PM): *puts your belt back on*
kyle (7:52:44 PM): never thought i woudl ever dress a woman
me (7:52:48 PM): lol
kyle (7:53:04 PM): oooOOOOOoooooOOooOOooo....i smell foooooooooooooooooood
me (7:53:04 PM): i woulda thought you would prefer the undressed
kyle (7:53:05 PM): brb
me (7:53:13 PM): lmao never changed
i will always admit that i still love him. i know i shouldnt, and that i should move on. but he made a huge impact on my life. it was him that made me feel much better about myself. it was him that taught me i should be cocky and not deny the fact that i really am beautiful, inside and out. it was him, that helped me realize i needed to open my eyes and was there to hold my hand as i walked into reality. but his hand slipped from mine...
k enough mushy shit. after that i had gone out to a local show. met shawn and some other kids.as well as an old friend Lottie, she's such a doll. but a straight arrow. she's the complete opposite of me, and yet we're good friends. she's blonde, never drank, or smoke anything in her life. she's also one of the few virgins i know. lol
it felt good to be around familiar faces and new ones. i just hope things go the way i'd like for them to for once. something always comes up and i cant get anything done.
wtf @ this commercial...this local car dealer has a bunch of old people rapping "who's ya mama?" cause the dealership is called "mama's cars"
wow. i really do need to get the fuck outta here...