i am invincible. no one can ever hurt me.
first off let me just make it crystal fucking clear that i do not HAVE to be nice. i CHOOSE to be nice. i've realized how precious every minute of every day truely is. i will NOT take anything for granted anymore and i WILL see the beauty in the world and love the people i love deeply. i will not hate anyone, i will not hold grudges, i will not judge people. i will be a good person, and i will do the right thing. he is the strength inside me. he is my angel keeping me out of harms way. he is the love that i have to offer. now that thats been stated let me make my second point. do NOT take this for granted. please do not fuck with me after i've shown you forgiveness. please do not lie to me, JUST BE REAL. all i want from man kind is for everyone to just BE REAL. i am not just a pretty face. you say these things out of jealousy and i can't really be mad at you for it. your young, your first instinct is to talk shit. if i were you, i'd be jealous too. i WON'T be a bitch, and i WON'T hurt your feelings. all i want to do is help you. i like you i really do and i don't know why. i just want to take you under my wing and protect you. now that ryan is gone my motherly instincts need to be directed somewhere else. i feel so lost. i just want someone to take care of. now it is he who is taking care of me. i can feel him. he is the blood in my veins, he is my calm state of mind, he is my tears, and he is my sleep at night. everynight before i go to sleep i say "baby i love you, now help me to sleep easy." every night he is with me. he puts me to sleep, he keeps my mind vacant and clear of dreams. it's better that i don't dream. it just makes me upset. and i wake up in the morning and i say "baby i love you, thank you." as incomplete as i feel without him, i can feel his soul manifesting in my heart. slowly but surely, finding its way through my body to my heart. he is with me always. this void will be filled. our souls are one, and even though a part of me is already dead, he is helping me live. so i go back to what i was trying to say in the first place, don't take my love for granted. i will not hesitate to break you down.