This is not an apology. Or an admission of fault. I think we as people are past the blame. I could lie and tell you that this past year and a half has been easy. But that is not true. But in a true fashion we all persevered and are continuing to move on. I am in no way close to the person I used to be. My thoughts, my hopes, my outlook on life in general are all completely different. But one thing I know is who I was, and where I came from. And mistakes I made. And you Robyn Yvette, were a very important part of who I was. We were all the other needed for a very long time, and I would really like to take this time to thank you for all that you did for me. I am sorry it took me so long to see. But yes...Robyn you were a wonderful friend to me. And we were great friends who had many many great memories. Memories that I no longer want clouded by something dark. I am not asking for your friendship. I am simply stating that I no longer have any bad thoughts towards you, and in all honesty I did at one time. I blamed you for many things. But I am over that. I place no blame on any one person. Just a series of tragic events that ended a friendship that when it was good...it was really good. But when it was bad, it was very bad.
It has taken me a long time to get to the point where I could write these words. But now that I am here. I believe I am a better person for it.
I hope you are doing well, and I wish you all the best.
If you were honestly past it, I would not be constantly hearing all the mean, awful things you & Alex say about me. I am not in the least bit fat, thank you & to tell you the truth, I was past this a long time ago. I don't talk about you or Alex because we were friends at one point. BEST friends & although that ship has sailed, I still care about you guys and how the words I choose to say would make you feel if they got back to you. I'm glad you finally realized that I WAS a good friend to you. The thing that hurt me the most was that you kept saying I wasn't. Like, everything that we had been through and survived TOGETHER meant nothing to you.
Just, please stop saying horrible things about me. Both of you. I have enough respect for you both to stay quiet & it would be nice to get the same. I hope that you writing this to me means that you will. Take care.
You're right the things weren't right. They were completely out of spite and I apologize for that. I was very angry for some reason. I am not longer. It is only smiles I get now. I think more of what we were and not what we were not. As I told you previously I am no the same person. Many things are different for me. I have spent much of the past year and a half or so trying to figure out where I went wrong in the latter part of our friendship. And only recently have I come to the realize that, for whatever reason it may be you never realized I only wanted you to be happy. I honestly tried and I guess for some reason or another that is not what came off. I blame myself. The only thing I do know is that you were my best friend then...you weren't. I have never been the same. But that is also one thing I have come to enjoy is where life will take you and who you will meet. It is hard at the time to see how each person molded you. And it is even more exciting to find out that maybe people you might have thought affected you in the negative...you later find out affected you in the not so negative. This realization about you and I was an especially exciting one. And it was only after I got over the anger that I let myself heal, so to speak. You take care as well, Yvette. ;)
I think we as people are past the blame. I could lie and tell you that this past year and a half has been easy. But that is not true. But in a true fashion we all persevered and are continuing to move on. I am in no way close to the person I used to be. My thoughts, my hopes, my outlook on life in general are all completely different.
But one thing I know is who I was, and where I came from. And mistakes I made.
And you Robyn Yvette, were a very important part of who I was. We were all the other needed for a very long time, and I would really like to take this time to thank you for all that you did for me. I am sorry it took me so long to see. But yes...Robyn you were a wonderful friend to me. And we were great friends who had many many great memories. Memories that I no longer want clouded by something dark.
I am not asking for your friendship.
I am simply stating that I no longer have any bad thoughts towards you, and in all honesty I did at one time. I blamed you for many things. But I am over that. I place no blame on any one person. Just a series of tragic events that ended a friendship that when it was good...it was really good. But when it was bad, it was very bad.
It has taken me a long time to get to the point where I could write these words. But now that I am here. I believe I am a better person for it.
I hope you are doing well, and I wish you all the best.
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Just, please stop saying horrible things about me. Both of you.
I have enough respect for you both to stay quiet & it would be nice to get the same. I hope that you writing this to me means that you will. Take care.
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