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i'm listening to music that isn't mine and the siren goes off every two seconds, alarm, alarm.
people i don't care about are talking to me. it takes as much effort to climb the mountain as it does to type the feelings out of my head.
rory, today i didn't want to see you.
saying that seems like a good idea now, i know you'll read it. i feel like everything i say is the truth, and i truly believe that the truth will have no consequences, because i ignorantly believe that the truth has power over all.
i know it hurts sometimes. and i'm tired of it hurting. and i know i'm just as bad, because i try too hard to be happy, and i remedy with the wrong medicines.
i'm here, safe.
but really, all i want is to be laying next toyou.
if i came over and lay in your bed right now and layed next to you, would you take it all back and make the room stop spinning?
i'm layinmg right noext to you right now.
people i don't care about are talking to me. it takes as much effort to climb the mountain as it does to type the feelings out of my head.
rory, today i didn't want to see you.
saying that seems like a good idea now, i know you'll read it. i feel like everything i say is the truth, and i truly believe that the truth will have no consequences, because i ignorantly believe that the truth has power over all.
i know it hurts sometimes. and i'm tired of it hurting. and i know i'm just as bad, because i try too hard to be happy, and i remedy with the wrong medicines.
i'm here, safe.
but really, all i want is to be laying next toyou.
if i came over and lay in your bed right now and layed next to you, would you take it all back and make the room stop spinning?
i'm layinmg right noext to you right now.