but i'm not convinced ... lalala
i don't know what possesses parents to try to have meaningful important conversations with their teenage children like the second they crawl out of bed ...
story:
this morning, i get out of bed and my ear sorta hurts so i go to the kitchen to get a drink because i figure that my ear is like "nicole, you're dehydrated you dumb bitch" and i'm like "fine.. asshole"
so i have my towelover my shoulder and my dad goes to clean the cat litter before i get in the shower and they go to work .. and my mom starts talking to me about how everyone got early acceptance to ottawa except me and blah blah blah... my dad and her start then critisizing my university choices because they didn't even know what i applied for and they thought i applied for engineering at uOttawa ... they don't even have the kind of engineering i would have applied for ... and i don't like engineering . i just wanna be a doctor.. then my mom starts going on about money and blah blah blah and tells me i need to get applying for scholarships and shit and i was like "okay" like what am i supposed to say.. it wasnt even 6 am and we were having a conversation about university.. so that sucked
anyways .. on another note .. i've determined that officially, i suck ... my brother and i got into a fight last night about will, which is stupid because i shouldn't even consider him .. but he won't even add me to msn and its frustrating and annyoing and i don't understand why he won't.. like wahts wrong with me? i'm not gunna threaten his relationship with his girlfriend or anything.. i just wanna be friends with the possibility in the back of our minds that if anything goes bad with him and his girlfriend and they break up, him and i can get together but hes such a cool guy so i wanna just be friends with him .. i don't know.. my brother told me to call him and i'm like ".... that'd be weird .. " i think so at least and i don't know what i'd say and what if his girlfriend was there .. how am i supposed to talk to him if his girlfriend is there .. like that'd be weird .. i have no idea .. maybe i should just give up on the whole will thing and go back to liking no one. but its not like liking someone is a switch you can turn off and on because you can't control it
soo .. in conclusion
i suck and this sucks and ... i'm totally screwed
but on the brightside, i love you
story:
this morning, i get out of bed and my ear sorta hurts so i go to the kitchen to get a drink because i figure that my ear is like "nicole, you're dehydrated you dumb bitch" and i'm like "fine.. asshole"
so i have my towelover my shoulder and my dad goes to clean the cat litter before i get in the shower and they go to work .. and my mom starts talking to me about how everyone got early acceptance to ottawa except me and blah blah blah... my dad and her start then critisizing my university choices because they didn't even know what i applied for and they thought i applied for engineering at uOttawa ... they don't even have the kind of engineering i would have applied for ... and i don't like engineering . i just wanna be a doctor.. then my mom starts going on about money and blah blah blah and tells me i need to get applying for scholarships and shit and i was like "okay" like what am i supposed to say.. it wasnt even 6 am and we were having a conversation about university.. so that sucked
anyways .. on another note .. i've determined that officially, i suck ... my brother and i got into a fight last night about will, which is stupid because i shouldn't even consider him .. but he won't even add me to msn and its frustrating and annyoing and i don't understand why he won't.. like wahts wrong with me? i'm not gunna threaten his relationship with his girlfriend or anything.. i just wanna be friends with the possibility in the back of our minds that if anything goes bad with him and his girlfriend and they break up, him and i can get together but hes such a cool guy so i wanna just be friends with him .. i don't know.. my brother told me to call him and i'm like ".... that'd be weird .. " i think so at least and i don't know what i'd say and what if his girlfriend was there .. how am i supposed to talk to him if his girlfriend is there .. like that'd be weird .. i have no idea .. maybe i should just give up on the whole will thing and go back to liking no one. but its not like liking someone is a switch you can turn off and on because you can't control it
soo .. in conclusion
i suck and this sucks and ... i'm totally screwed
but on the brightside, i love you