Happy Xmas.
Why do the holidays make me so emotional? I just spent the past hour crying writing my mom's Christmas card. I think it's because my sister isn't here - and this house doesn't feel like my home anymore because I'm leaving in a week or two... and the other things that happen every year around this time that make me incredibley sad and depressed - but I am going to try and have a good night tonight with my family - this is really my last Christmas at home. You know? That makes me kind of sad, too. This is supposed to be the best time of the year - but so rarely is that ever the case. And WHAT? Where did 2006 go? Cause I swear it was just yesterday that I was driving my dad's truck up north on MOPAC singing James Blunt's "Beautiful" (cause you know that was the only song on the radio back then)... and checking Lacey's mail and crashing at her place... and watching the Rose Bowl - and poking Travis on Facebook... I never could have imagined how much my life would change this past year... and how much it is currently changing.
I'm FINALLY growing up - and I really don't know how I feel about that.
I hope my family likes the gifts I got for them - I spent about $20 a piece on everyone except for my mom, I got her more. I also really miss Travis - but he'll be back on Tuesday and then I'll be going up to Ft. Worth with him for a few days - when I get back, I've gotta get ready to move out. I'm feeling SO unsettled. And then I get all depressed about how old my grandma is getting and wondering if this will be her last Christmas, feeling sad that I haven't seen my sister in half a year -and about having lost regular contact with her... knowing I might never live here again - and a million other really personal things that just make me wanna bawl my eyes out. Lame huh?
So me and Travis exchanged gifts on Wednesday. He got me an iPod radio transmitter, a necklace, a hot topic gift card, warm vanilla sugar stuff from Bath and Body works and a super awesome Utexas wallet. I love all of it. I got him a bunch of stuff too. I just wish he was going to be here tonight cause this is when we do Christmas at my house.
In other news: I HATE the new AIM. If I'd have known how whack it is, you can bet money I never would have downloaded the latest version. I tried to clean my room to make space for new stuff I'm getting - but I've outgrown this bedroom - a long time ago, really. I'm also trying to teach myself the last 2 semesters of Spanish and registering for that Wisconsin test to try and CLEP out of it - which I know won't happen, but for $15, I am willing to take that chance and give it 3 hours of my time.
That's about all I have for now. I'll try to post some pictures later. I feel bad about neglecting livejournal - but it really isn't the same here anymore. I also feel bad for not keeping in touch better with some people like Jer, Nicki, and Jessface. I'll do a better job next year guys.
I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas.
I'm FINALLY growing up - and I really don't know how I feel about that.
I hope my family likes the gifts I got for them - I spent about $20 a piece on everyone except for my mom, I got her more. I also really miss Travis - but he'll be back on Tuesday and then I'll be going up to Ft. Worth with him for a few days - when I get back, I've gotta get ready to move out. I'm feeling SO unsettled. And then I get all depressed about how old my grandma is getting and wondering if this will be her last Christmas, feeling sad that I haven't seen my sister in half a year -and about having lost regular contact with her... knowing I might never live here again - and a million other really personal things that just make me wanna bawl my eyes out. Lame huh?
So me and Travis exchanged gifts on Wednesday. He got me an iPod radio transmitter, a necklace, a hot topic gift card, warm vanilla sugar stuff from Bath and Body works and a super awesome Utexas wallet. I love all of it. I got him a bunch of stuff too. I just wish he was going to be here tonight cause this is when we do Christmas at my house.
In other news: I HATE the new AIM. If I'd have known how whack it is, you can bet money I never would have downloaded the latest version. I tried to clean my room to make space for new stuff I'm getting - but I've outgrown this bedroom - a long time ago, really. I'm also trying to teach myself the last 2 semesters of Spanish and registering for that Wisconsin test to try and CLEP out of it - which I know won't happen, but for $15, I am willing to take that chance and give it 3 hours of my time.
That's about all I have for now. I'll try to post some pictures later. I feel bad about neglecting livejournal - but it really isn't the same here anymore. I also feel bad for not keeping in touch better with some people like Jer, Nicki, and Jessface. I'll do a better job next year guys.
I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas.