so far, so good *touch wood*
Okay so day one and a half almost out of the way.
I'm alive, the sisters are alive, the nan is alive, and the house is standing. I think I am doing okay! Haha.
Work is tiring me out, and I'm only doing five hours! Just feels like I am running around like a headless chicken. I'm up at half 6, and I am now having to go to bed at 11, if not earlier because I am so tired!
Trying to keep an upbeat feeling at the moment, because my nan said they are all relying on me, and that I'm like the stability of the house, and my mood can set things off. I hope I am making her proud.
Even though I'm tired, I am finding I am trying to keep myself busy with the running of the house so that I don't start to panic that I am doing things wrong or forgetting to do things. Worried about Lovissa, bless her cottons, cried before school this morning because she realised they aren't coming back for a while. Felt so guilty I couldn't console her. Think it's going to hit me start of next week. I think I may have a mini break down. But hopefully not.
As I left this morning my nan called me back to the house. I was not expecting what she had to say at all. "What would you have to do if something happened to me?". Completely left me dumbstruck. She said it had just popped into her head. I said ring mum and dad, she said what nobody closer to home. I said maybe auntie Jacqueline. God it is such a horrid thought. She has really got me overly worried. I hope everything's fine. But her ankle is all swollen and bruised and blood clot red at the moment, and I have no idea why or what to do with it. Tarin bandaged it and put ibuprofen gel on it, and we told her to keep her leg elevated. Hopefully it's just a knock that has swollen.
Praying for the safety of all my family and friends. As I do every night, but somehow this time I feel it is more needed.
x
I'm alive, the sisters are alive, the nan is alive, and the house is standing. I think I am doing okay! Haha.
Work is tiring me out, and I'm only doing five hours! Just feels like I am running around like a headless chicken. I'm up at half 6, and I am now having to go to bed at 11, if not earlier because I am so tired!
Trying to keep an upbeat feeling at the moment, because my nan said they are all relying on me, and that I'm like the stability of the house, and my mood can set things off. I hope I am making her proud.
Even though I'm tired, I am finding I am trying to keep myself busy with the running of the house so that I don't start to panic that I am doing things wrong or forgetting to do things. Worried about Lovissa, bless her cottons, cried before school this morning because she realised they aren't coming back for a while. Felt so guilty I couldn't console her. Think it's going to hit me start of next week. I think I may have a mini break down. But hopefully not.
As I left this morning my nan called me back to the house. I was not expecting what she had to say at all. "What would you have to do if something happened to me?". Completely left me dumbstruck. She said it had just popped into her head. I said ring mum and dad, she said what nobody closer to home. I said maybe auntie Jacqueline. God it is such a horrid thought. She has really got me overly worried. I hope everything's fine. But her ankle is all swollen and bruised and blood clot red at the moment, and I have no idea why or what to do with it. Tarin bandaged it and put ibuprofen gel on it, and we told her to keep her leg elevated. Hopefully it's just a knock that has swollen.
Praying for the safety of all my family and friends. As I do every night, but somehow this time I feel it is more needed.
x