this is to all the days i've cried myself to sleep

[_die_tragedy]

I feel so out of control and unstable. I wish someone could prove to me that there is a meaning to my existence. To go through the same routine everyday going in circles not going anywhere with your life. Tearing myself up inside trying to find that innerpeace that most likely isn't even there. I wish I coulda have one accomplishment one good thing to be proud of but theres so few things even to live for. So few things that can even make me smile. So many insecurities about myself and my life that it's hard to be normal, if there even is such a thing. Sometimes I think most people can see right through me and others look and comment on outter attributes. But if anyone knew how ugly and lonely it was in side. They'd think I was to contagious even to be looking at

I think il take the long way home tonight