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i hate pretending things are good. i hate when people ask me how i am, and i answer fine, or just dandy, when that's not the truth at all, and i hate how im stubborn when it comes to apologies. i hate wanting something i can't have. i hate the fact that i have no one to call my own. i hate that jay is 3 hours away and doesn't have a computer at school, that boy is my sanity. i hate being sad, so i hate myself lately pretty much. i hate when people say they'll call you later and don't. i hate being alone . i hate how everyone else seems to have someone && im here with no one. i hate homecoming, the whole idea of the entire dance. i hate the fact that i want a date to it really bad, but only to say " i have a date". i hate how pathetic i sound too.