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I'm so sick of people treating me like shit and making me feel like I cant do anything right. Why do they feel the need to make me feel even worse? I have more problems than most people will ever know about but I'm not about to bring them up. They are problems I try to forget and I just try to have a good day. I dont need other things on top of that. I try so hard to not piss people off, but in some magical way it always happens. Do you really think I want to piss people off? Do you really think I like feeling this way? Because I hate it. I already feel bad enough about being the person I am, I already hate myself enough. Maybe I deserve it, maybe I really honestly do. But in my opinion, no matter how much I deserve it, there are people that deserve it more than me.
And dont bitch that I wrote this. Dont bitch if I just so happened to make you feel bad. I dont want to hear it. Everyone else gets their little entries that make me want to die, and make me feel like the worst friend ever because I either cant help, or I am the cause of it and dont even know how I fucked up this time.
So for once, you can sit there. You can feel bad and you can wonder what you did wrong. You can lose sleep over the fact that you just wish you knew if this was even about you. Have fun. The ceiling becomes pretty boring after the first three hours of staring at it.
And dont bitch that I wrote this. Dont bitch if I just so happened to make you feel bad. I dont want to hear it. Everyone else gets their little entries that make me want to die, and make me feel like the worst friend ever because I either cant help, or I am the cause of it and dont even know how I fucked up this time.
So for once, you can sit there. You can feel bad and you can wonder what you did wrong. You can lose sleep over the fact that you just wish you knew if this was even about you. Have fun. The ceiling becomes pretty boring after the first three hours of staring at it.