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...This will most likely be a really quick update because I dont have time to write a lot.
Today sucked...it really did. I didnt sleep at all last night, I was a little emo bitch and cried until 11:21 (sorry, I remember numbers easily) and then I got my notebook out and wrote until like 2 a.m., it was crazy, my wrist hurt like hell from writing so much. Then I tried to sleep, but I started freaking out, threw up, and at about 3 I started writing again. I wrote until I dont remember, because I dont remember anything that happened after 3 except my alarm clock made me jump and I got dressed and got on the bus.
Then on the bus I dont remember anything, I dont remember anything from shop, or history, or english...math all I remember is not getting it...and then walking out of the classroom Charlie was there, so I walked with him to the cafeteria. He had a bad day today plus he got kicked in the balls, I felt bad for him and almost started crying. I dont know why he was in a bad mood though, he never does tell me. I guess its just the fact that he most likely doesnt trust me...I dont know.
Then he left. I went with Alyssa to get lunch. Me and Michelle talked about Frankford for most of the time...I was still out of it, but I kind of remember it. I miss that place, when it was fun, not drama filled. When I was dating Benjii it was so much fun there, now its just hell. I wish everything was back to the way it was.
Then in pool we had CPR. It was boring, but I didnt mind boring things today. Biology was rather shitty as always.
The bus ride home...you always know when everyone has a bad day. Charlie sat by himself in his seat, he didnt talk at all except for a couple sentences before we left school...Alyssa was sleeping I guess, she didnt feel good. Me, I was being selfish and childish because I just wanted to see Sam, thats all I wanted, all I was asking for. Its not her fault, and I feel horrible writing this because she is the type of person that will blame it on herself, but its not her fault. I know it isnt. I just need her, and miss her sooooo much. LeAnn is a chick at her new school that she talks to a lot and I cant help but be jealous of her. I just want things to go back to the way they were. So that all made me cry, and I tried my hardest not to, and I hope no one but Alyssa noticed.
I had to break into my own house, cut my side open and it was bleeding like a mother fucker. Crazy bitch. So then I talked to Maverick and Alyssa...then Sam came on. I havent talked to anyone else. Maverick was funny so that made me smile and Sam always makes me smile. I was worried about Charlie because I am ridiculous and worry about everyone when they have a bad day. If I knew what to say, I would say something, but I dont know what to say to make it better.
Michelle wanted to know what happened over the summer, but I've never ever told anyone everything...I guess I should. I might write a friends only entry on it.
Today sucked...it really did. I didnt sleep at all last night, I was a little emo bitch and cried until 11:21 (sorry, I remember numbers easily) and then I got my notebook out and wrote until like 2 a.m., it was crazy, my wrist hurt like hell from writing so much. Then I tried to sleep, but I started freaking out, threw up, and at about 3 I started writing again. I wrote until I dont remember, because I dont remember anything that happened after 3 except my alarm clock made me jump and I got dressed and got on the bus.
Then on the bus I dont remember anything, I dont remember anything from shop, or history, or english...math all I remember is not getting it...and then walking out of the classroom Charlie was there, so I walked with him to the cafeteria. He had a bad day today plus he got kicked in the balls, I felt bad for him and almost started crying. I dont know why he was in a bad mood though, he never does tell me. I guess its just the fact that he most likely doesnt trust me...I dont know.
Then he left. I went with Alyssa to get lunch. Me and Michelle talked about Frankford for most of the time...I was still out of it, but I kind of remember it. I miss that place, when it was fun, not drama filled. When I was dating Benjii it was so much fun there, now its just hell. I wish everything was back to the way it was.
Then in pool we had CPR. It was boring, but I didnt mind boring things today. Biology was rather shitty as always.
The bus ride home...you always know when everyone has a bad day. Charlie sat by himself in his seat, he didnt talk at all except for a couple sentences before we left school...Alyssa was sleeping I guess, she didnt feel good. Me, I was being selfish and childish because I just wanted to see Sam, thats all I wanted, all I was asking for. Its not her fault, and I feel horrible writing this because she is the type of person that will blame it on herself, but its not her fault. I know it isnt. I just need her, and miss her sooooo much. LeAnn is a chick at her new school that she talks to a lot and I cant help but be jealous of her. I just want things to go back to the way they were. So that all made me cry, and I tried my hardest not to, and I hope no one but Alyssa noticed.
I had to break into my own house, cut my side open and it was bleeding like a mother fucker. Crazy bitch. So then I talked to Maverick and Alyssa...then Sam came on. I havent talked to anyone else. Maverick was funny so that made me smile and Sam always makes me smile. I was worried about Charlie because I am ridiculous and worry about everyone when they have a bad day. If I knew what to say, I would say something, but I dont know what to say to make it better.
Michelle wanted to know what happened over the summer, but I've never ever told anyone everything...I guess I should. I might write a friends only entry on it.