Dunno.
Damn, been a while since ive updated in this thing, oh well. Life still remains the same. The same blahness ive had for a while now.
On a good note tho, I finally got my DVDs back from my ex/b a couple days ago, and it was the first time Ive seen him since before we broke up. I felt like shit for not staying and talking, grabbed my movies and I was gone. Tho im kind of glad I didnt because it felt really weird to see him again, and even tho I was the one to break up with him i actually missed him quite a bit. Since then Ive felt really messed up about the situation, like I wished I would of stuck things out and stayed with him. When I broke up with him I wasnt myself at all, and hadnt been for some time. In other words, he wasnt the only one that was being affected by me; my coworkers and boss at the time even noticed I wasnt as chipper as I used to be and seemed quite down about everything, quiet, moodiness, the whole thing. Im alot better now, mainly because my health problems are finally turning around, im at a different job and have a new ride. I think what it all comes down to is that I just miss the attention and affection from dating, and I knew that he was one good guy at giving it. Fuck, i dunno what to do. :(
Another thing that occured to me..I have yet to have a relationship last more than 6mos...this is not good.
Ha.
On a good note tho, I finally got my DVDs back from my ex/b a couple days ago, and it was the first time Ive seen him since before we broke up. I felt like shit for not staying and talking, grabbed my movies and I was gone. Tho im kind of glad I didnt because it felt really weird to see him again, and even tho I was the one to break up with him i actually missed him quite a bit. Since then Ive felt really messed up about the situation, like I wished I would of stuck things out and stayed with him. When I broke up with him I wasnt myself at all, and hadnt been for some time. In other words, he wasnt the only one that was being affected by me; my coworkers and boss at the time even noticed I wasnt as chipper as I used to be and seemed quite down about everything, quiet, moodiness, the whole thing. Im alot better now, mainly because my health problems are finally turning around, im at a different job and have a new ride. I think what it all comes down to is that I just miss the attention and affection from dating, and I knew that he was one good guy at giving it. Fuck, i dunno what to do. :(
Another thing that occured to me..I have yet to have a relationship last more than 6mos...this is not good.
Ha.