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Ok so I'm calm now and everything is ok. I jaut wrote a long entry and it was erased thatnks to the ass whole I have for a brother. Any ways the last time I updated there were some serious things wrong. Like kill meserious. But its ok now and I have an eating scedule that I keep too. Yet the winter sucks because I'm all ways cold. But as everyone says its "because you have no body fat". Thats a good thing right.
Well now I am on a new quest. One that society might see as wrong or not the right choise. IDK I just need to get this out and get input. The leap in your stomach that turnign that you can not quiet untill you have been with a person. Or rather get when you see scertin people I don't get for guys.
Ever since I was little I would walk into a rooma nd right away notice the girls first even if some of you might say that there was a cute guy in the room. I would notice the girls and in the pit of my stomach know who to talk to and who not too. And that jolt would be there with some of them. That need to be wtih them and not with out them. IDK I'm so confused.
With nick (for thoses of you who know who he was) I loved the closeness but didn't feel comfterble. It was, think between the two of us. Not jsut me ... I hope. But it didn't feel right. But he was also really annoying and I would not go back on that in my life. there was nothing there but there is something some where else.
Oh god she is going to kill me
but i have to get this out. riss that jolt in the stomach that feels like you just got socked in the abbs I get when I see you. I tis weird and odd and scarie.. you know what don't even .... disreguard what I just said if you read that and just go about life as normal.
But you know I will never know. they say it is all in the kiss. If it is there... the conection or the nothing. In one simple kiss. The meating of lips..... crossing of toungs but I guess its ok...... I don't know how many people know this but I have never been kissed so what the hell am I talking about I have no fucking Idea.
I really djon't know.... I jsut need to think and think and think.... I hate thinking it gets me confused and then I have to think and get unconfused and then I'm worse off oh well what ever......
If there is any imput then HELP
I would really apreachate
Well now I am on a new quest. One that society might see as wrong or not the right choise. IDK I just need to get this out and get input. The leap in your stomach that turnign that you can not quiet untill you have been with a person. Or rather get when you see scertin people I don't get for guys.
Ever since I was little I would walk into a rooma nd right away notice the girls first even if some of you might say that there was a cute guy in the room. I would notice the girls and in the pit of my stomach know who to talk to and who not too. And that jolt would be there with some of them. That need to be wtih them and not with out them. IDK I'm so confused.
With nick (for thoses of you who know who he was) I loved the closeness but didn't feel comfterble. It was, think between the two of us. Not jsut me ... I hope. But it didn't feel right. But he was also really annoying and I would not go back on that in my life. there was nothing there but there is something some where else.
Oh god she is going to kill me
but i have to get this out. riss that jolt in the stomach that feels like you just got socked in the abbs I get when I see you. I tis weird and odd and scarie.. you know what don't even .... disreguard what I just said if you read that and just go about life as normal.
But you know I will never know. they say it is all in the kiss. If it is there... the conection or the nothing. In one simple kiss. The meating of lips..... crossing of toungs but I guess its ok...... I don't know how many people know this but I have never been kissed so what the hell am I talking about I have no fucking Idea.
I really djon't know.... I jsut need to think and think and think.... I hate thinking it gets me confused and then I have to think and get unconfused and then I'm worse off oh well what ever......
If there is any imput then HELP
I would really apreachate