dont you ever just....
get the feeling of complete abandonment? not just from people around you but that yourself is trying to run away from you?
"Asleep in perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
Gonna get me a little oblivion
Try to keep myself away from myself and me"
I swore i'd never write one of these emo online journals, cause i know how pissing annoying they are. But if I wasnt such a lazy bitch i'd keep a proper written one. But i'd worry about people finding it. Things I hate:
1. too many fucking kids that aren't ours in the house - yeah im all up for fostering, and helping out someone in need bollocks but god shes a little shit sometimes, i just wish for once, MY house felt like MY home
2. my job - its a fucking dive, i can feel myself getting stupid, i hate i hate it i hate it... perhaps im unemployable
3. the fact that i'm a shit ass girlfriend (add obsessive into there somewhere)
4. emily - and how shes just full of shit and makes people feel like shit
i love reminissing on past experiences, talks in the rain, tears on the phone, walks to the beaches, making out EVERYWHERE, wearing my hair in a way which made me look "utterly cute", first kisses, meeting the parents, saving me from the past.
and now i cant even seem to share those things with anyone else, other than myself.... who im so desperatly trying to run away from...
x
"Asleep in perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
Gonna get me a little oblivion
Try to keep myself away from myself and me"
I swore i'd never write one of these emo online journals, cause i know how pissing annoying they are. But if I wasnt such a lazy bitch i'd keep a proper written one. But i'd worry about people finding it. Things I hate:
1. too many fucking kids that aren't ours in the house - yeah im all up for fostering, and helping out someone in need bollocks but god shes a little shit sometimes, i just wish for once, MY house felt like MY home
2. my job - its a fucking dive, i can feel myself getting stupid, i hate i hate it i hate it... perhaps im unemployable
3. the fact that i'm a shit ass girlfriend (add obsessive into there somewhere)
4. emily - and how shes just full of shit and makes people feel like shit
i love reminissing on past experiences, talks in the rain, tears on the phone, walks to the beaches, making out EVERYWHERE, wearing my hair in a way which made me look "utterly cute", first kisses, meeting the parents, saving me from the past.
and now i cant even seem to share those things with anyone else, other than myself.... who im so desperatly trying to run away from...
x