My Christmas wish
Everyone has them... I only share mine on here because no one really listens. I am in a home with laughter, schreeks, smiles, tears, running, everything. But yet I feel so alone most of the time. I am a stay at home mom to people who act like I am a maid. I do all that needs to be done, but by days end, its back to normal. If I don't do it, it looks like a tornado came in, no dishes left, clothes scattered, awful. I wish for a full day off. A day for me and only me. I want a day of no worries, no yelling, no tears. A day where if I want to spend that $5 in my wallet, I can and not feel guilty. A day where I don't worry if the power will stay on or how I will feed the family that night. A day of just me and a book.
I have so many worries and so little trust. I watch Corey go to work and come home and do nothing. When I say noting, I mean nothing. I know he works, but I never got that luxury when I worked full time. I just want him to send me off for the day and me come home and all is done. I can come home and soak and go to bed.
I want to know all the bills are paid and still can buy presents for the kids
I want a Christmas with no worries of how it will happen.....
Lord please hear my prayer and help me understand
I am trying to hold it together. You took my rock...my father. I could call him and he would give it to me straight... I had help. I had support. I lean on mom, but she is trying to make it without dad. I look at my kids and want more for them. Just when we get ahead, you throw us another curve.. the kind that take us back to the start of it all. After 15 years, we are due to just get ahead. I watch all these around me go forward and have it all... well, no love. My family has love. I love my family with my soul and leave us in your hands. I leave it to you and all you are. I am just praying for a break. I am praying you will bless my family and help up to your ability. I pray for stability in myself. I pray for a day where I don't feel in the shadows. I pray for a day where I am me again...
I have so many worries and so little trust. I watch Corey go to work and come home and do nothing. When I say noting, I mean nothing. I know he works, but I never got that luxury when I worked full time. I just want him to send me off for the day and me come home and all is done. I can come home and soak and go to bed.
I want to know all the bills are paid and still can buy presents for the kids
I want a Christmas with no worries of how it will happen.....
Lord please hear my prayer and help me understand
I am trying to hold it together. You took my rock...my father. I could call him and he would give it to me straight... I had help. I had support. I lean on mom, but she is trying to make it without dad. I look at my kids and want more for them. Just when we get ahead, you throw us another curve.. the kind that take us back to the start of it all. After 15 years, we are due to just get ahead. I watch all these around me go forward and have it all... well, no love. My family has love. I love my family with my soul and leave us in your hands. I leave it to you and all you are. I am just praying for a break. I am praying you will bless my family and help up to your ability. I pray for stability in myself. I pray for a day where I don't feel in the shadows. I pray for a day where I am me again...