TELEVISION GIVES GOOD DISASTER
*NOTE: to the person who made the anonymous but generous offer 2 entries ago. i plan to collect. but it would be easier to do that if i knew who you were.
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I feel extremely outdated.
It is a fast, sexy, liberal country we live in
it has never really been considered a classy country
i would like to live in one of those
someplace with a bold staunchy little culture
and not a tepid brew like ours.
i have been reading about iceland.
iceland appeals to me
because
everything seems cleaner
and brighter
than here
in iceland
they have national enchanted places.
i have tried to explain this to people,
the draw of an enchanted place.
but the word enchanted doesn't seem to
have the same draw
that it did
when we were young
and god didn't seem impossible
***
When some maniac murders someone
they become an instant hero
i wish some maniac would murder me
i'd rather be murdered
than shipped to a home
with saggy old people
or become senile
if i were murdered
i would like to be strangled
or drowned
i think
i would like to die in water
because water is so shamelessly sentimental
and romanticizes death
and makes me feel like i have missed something
just by staying alive.
and anyway
i have never been comfortable with breathing
it has always been a hassle
a burden
breathing
i can always feel my lungs
rippling out and in
like saline implants
under my skin
this explains
my desire to completely
destroy my lungs with tobacco
and cheap incense
***
I feel extremely outdated.
It is a fast, sexy, liberal country we live in
it has never really been considered a classy country
i would like to live in one of those
someplace with a bold staunchy little culture
and not a tepid brew like ours.
i have been reading about iceland.
iceland appeals to me
because
everything seems cleaner
and brighter
than here
in iceland
they have national enchanted places.
i have tried to explain this to people,
the draw of an enchanted place.
but the word enchanted doesn't seem to
have the same draw
that it did
when we were young
and god didn't seem impossible
***
When some maniac murders someone
they become an instant hero
i wish some maniac would murder me
i'd rather be murdered
than shipped to a home
with saggy old people
or become senile
if i were murdered
i would like to be strangled
or drowned
i think
i would like to die in water
because water is so shamelessly sentimental
and romanticizes death
and makes me feel like i have missed something
just by staying alive.
and anyway
i have never been comfortable with breathing
it has always been a hassle
a burden
breathing
i can always feel my lungs
rippling out and in
like saline implants
under my skin
this explains
my desire to completely
destroy my lungs with tobacco
and cheap incense