opposites
yo yo. i'm back at school! i got back a few hours ago and then sam and i went shopping. anyway, i realized quite a few things on this week away from montclair. i have major issues with being serious. haha. see? and...i also realized that it is so hard to trust new people. and i think of myself as very open and accepting, but lately i just feel like everyone is out to get me. hahaha that sounds slightly psychotic but i'm not crazy. like with guys, maybe its just my passed messed up relationships that really screws with my head. once i meet someone new i get all these negative ideas like this wont last or something just because there are a bunch of assholes that like to FUCK girls over. but..a lot of guys feel the same way about girls. which i wasn't aware of. but those times are over because i found that people like that aren't worth dating or even being friends with. another thing i figured out it that once you have fallen in love, it's hard to do again. like you think its gonna be easy finding someone to connect with and just fall into ruitine, but then all those little things come into play that mess w/ your head and then you guys suddenly can't talk anymore. why? hmmmmm. i am boggled by relationships. i'm glad that i found people that can make me happy..like friend wise and shit. because if your friends suck then your probably gonna suck too. i just want everyone to find the right person for them. i've been thinking due to situations which all my girlfriends are going thru. it seems like everyone is having a little difficulty with the opposite sex. has anyone heard that new sheryl crow song? i think thats what this all started with. i was in the car on the way here and it came on....
"i would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and he's taken just all that i have
but if you want i'll try to love again
baby, i'll try to love again, but i know...
the first cut is the deepest
baby i know
the first cut is the deepest
but when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst..."
- this song reminds me of jackie, cause we always sing it in the car together. :) i miss her.
so anyway thats what i thought about the whole way home. like once you fall in love once, can u ever really do it all again? and when you finally get married or whatever what will it be like? i hope i don't end up like some people i know that are older and married. i want to be happy alllllll thru my old years and not be mean.
tips to guys, you always mess this up!
1. don't ever lie, it wont make it better
2. empty promises are the worst. like saying you're gonna come visit or gonna do something so great for an anniversay and then never go thru with it. if your not gonna do it, just never tell us and we won't be dissappointed
3. when we're mean it's probably because you did something stupid first. all you need to do is compliment us, or at least be affectionate and not be retarded.
4. if you have a question about what happened some drunken nite last week, ask and we will tell. i don't know many girls that can totally lie about what they did. we'll most likely break down and cry so be prepared. and don't be weird when girls cry cause it makes us uncomfortable
5. if you miss us, love us, or just think we look pretty one nite..tell us and make our year. haha
6. oh, and if we say its a joke, its a joke. leave it at that.
this is my advice, some perfect guy is out there! yay! can't wait. haha
~i'm goin to play nintendo and stop thinking. hehe. <3
"i would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and he's taken just all that i have
but if you want i'll try to love again
baby, i'll try to love again, but i know...
the first cut is the deepest
baby i know
the first cut is the deepest
but when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst..."
- this song reminds me of jackie, cause we always sing it in the car together. :) i miss her.
so anyway thats what i thought about the whole way home. like once you fall in love once, can u ever really do it all again? and when you finally get married or whatever what will it be like? i hope i don't end up like some people i know that are older and married. i want to be happy alllllll thru my old years and not be mean.
tips to guys, you always mess this up!
1. don't ever lie, it wont make it better
2. empty promises are the worst. like saying you're gonna come visit or gonna do something so great for an anniversay and then never go thru with it. if your not gonna do it, just never tell us and we won't be dissappointed
3. when we're mean it's probably because you did something stupid first. all you need to do is compliment us, or at least be affectionate and not be retarded.
4. if you have a question about what happened some drunken nite last week, ask and we will tell. i don't know many girls that can totally lie about what they did. we'll most likely break down and cry so be prepared. and don't be weird when girls cry cause it makes us uncomfortable
5. if you miss us, love us, or just think we look pretty one nite..tell us and make our year. haha
6. oh, and if we say its a joke, its a joke. leave it at that.
this is my advice, some perfect guy is out there! yay! can't wait. haha
~i'm goin to play nintendo and stop thinking. hehe. <3