Time to put on my Emo pants.
I've been seriously emo for the past few days, and I can't really pinpoint the cause of it. I know I miss Kristi, and I miss RP, and I don't like this situation with Mom and Dad (My Mom and Dad split up because Mom got a new boyfriend, so basically my Mom made EXACTLY like Rob did to me, but now I have to watch Dad go through it.) I shouldn't be so emo. Animazement is coming up, and I actually have enough money saved up for it already. At least for room and registration, so that means by the time it comes around i'll actually have some spending money. I'll also get to meet Ben's friends, who were all behind me when the shit went down with Rob, even though they didn't know me.
Soon, I'll be spending a weekend in a fancy hotel, drunk,surrounded by awesome people and anime. That's something to look forward to and be happy about....But I actually considered not going. For whatever emo reason. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. I've been randomly missing Rob, too. I don't think it's him I miss though. I think it's having someone. I'm pretty sure that's it. You know, in about 4 months it'll be a year since Rob left, and I've come a long way in that short amount of time. I'm working, I've caught up the bills, I'm working on getting my license and with Mom around, the house is looking great. The yard is even cleaned up. My life has improved so much. I really have nothing to complain about, and I don't understand my whiny phase at all. I don't like it. I'm one of those "suck it up" type of people. Maybe I'll get laid and go back to normal. I hope so. To both things.
Soon, I'll be spending a weekend in a fancy hotel, drunk,surrounded by awesome people and anime. That's something to look forward to and be happy about....But I actually considered not going. For whatever emo reason. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. I've been randomly missing Rob, too. I don't think it's him I miss though. I think it's having someone. I'm pretty sure that's it. You know, in about 4 months it'll be a year since Rob left, and I've come a long way in that short amount of time. I'm working, I've caught up the bills, I'm working on getting my license and with Mom around, the house is looking great. The yard is even cleaned up. My life has improved so much. I really have nothing to complain about, and I don't understand my whiny phase at all. I don't like it. I'm one of those "suck it up" type of people. Maybe I'll get laid and go back to normal. I hope so. To both things.