it's written but we can't read between the lines
How's college, you ask? You know, I'm not sure, because I don't feel like I've been there! No, really, I'm behind in everything, and I think I'm going to have to chain myself to my desk tonight to get some stuff done. I know Sophie thinks I'm the worst roommate ever-- I haven't seen her for long enough to have a real conversation since I moved in, and I haven't even met our suitemates, whoever they are.
It's just-- things have been confusing, and complicated. And they still are.
Avasa's been in bad shape from the effects of that plant, the Raven's milfoil that was all around his cabin. I thought our weekend out of town would make him better, and it did, temporarily. It also had the added side effect of me finally being able to tell Buffy about him. My sister? Is wicked cool. I completely wasn't expecting her to be okay with the whole thing, even when she met him and saw that he was several years older than me. Older than her, even. Only problem was, when we got to my house and were talking to Willow and Buffy, he started losing cohesion again. Willow started researching what was going on with him, and I didn't like what she found out very much.
The plant affected him and Cassie both. Connected them somehow, some kind of mental link. They've been sharing dreams, like literally being in a dreamspace together. See, I knew something was up while we were away-- there was a weird moment in the car on the way back when I felt like he wanted to tell me something, but he wouldn't. And then Willow got all researchy, and I had to go to school... When I went back to the house to see how he was doing, I found out that Will had taken him and Cassie to the cabin to get them somewhere isolated, thinking that would help them until she could figure out how to break the mental link.
I was so upset when I went to the cabin after that. Well, I've been upset ever since this all started. When Avasa opened the door and I saw her over his shoulder, asleep in his bed, I felt like--. I dunno. I've never felt anything like that before, and I hope I never do again. Almost a sick feeling, like I was being left in the dark about something important, something I needed to know.
Avasa could tell, and he was horrified. I could see it in his eyes. He was answering my questions, at least the ones I could put into words, and then everything shifted. He started to kiss me, to touch me, and we completely forgot about Cassie. Completely. It was this frantic, hot, crazy... thing that just took us over. We did it right there, standing up, just inside the cabin, and it wasn't 'til after that we both realized Cassie was asleep in the bed. You wanna talk about colossal embarrassment? It was all we could do to turn around, and when we did, she wasn't there. She'd gone out the window. She had to, 'cause we were right by the door, and even with what we were doing, we would've noticed someone walking past us.
Let's not discuss the embarrassment that ensued when Avasa sent me to go find her... not going there. And when Willow fixes things, she'll be right across the hall, in the suite with Cecile and Jan and Amanda. Yay. I'm going to be one gigantic, tomato-red blush for a while when I talk to her.
So the consensus is, while I still don't like them having to practically live with each other at the moment, I can deal. Avasa and I are intensely good. Now if I can just catch up with this stuff for my classes, I'll feel a lot better.
[Open to Sophie]
It's just-- things have been confusing, and complicated. And they still are.
Avasa's been in bad shape from the effects of that plant, the Raven's milfoil that was all around his cabin. I thought our weekend out of town would make him better, and it did, temporarily. It also had the added side effect of me finally being able to tell Buffy about him. My sister? Is wicked cool. I completely wasn't expecting her to be okay with the whole thing, even when she met him and saw that he was several years older than me. Older than her, even. Only problem was, when we got to my house and were talking to Willow and Buffy, he started losing cohesion again. Willow started researching what was going on with him, and I didn't like what she found out very much.
The plant affected him and Cassie both. Connected them somehow, some kind of mental link. They've been sharing dreams, like literally being in a dreamspace together. See, I knew something was up while we were away-- there was a weird moment in the car on the way back when I felt like he wanted to tell me something, but he wouldn't. And then Willow got all researchy, and I had to go to school... When I went back to the house to see how he was doing, I found out that Will had taken him and Cassie to the cabin to get them somewhere isolated, thinking that would help them until she could figure out how to break the mental link.
I was so upset when I went to the cabin after that. Well, I've been upset ever since this all started. When Avasa opened the door and I saw her over his shoulder, asleep in his bed, I felt like--. I dunno. I've never felt anything like that before, and I hope I never do again. Almost a sick feeling, like I was being left in the dark about something important, something I needed to know.
Avasa could tell, and he was horrified. I could see it in his eyes. He was answering my questions, at least the ones I could put into words, and then everything shifted. He started to kiss me, to touch me, and we completely forgot about Cassie. Completely. It was this frantic, hot, crazy... thing that just took us over. We did it right there, standing up, just inside the cabin, and it wasn't 'til after that we both realized Cassie was asleep in the bed. You wanna talk about colossal embarrassment? It was all we could do to turn around, and when we did, she wasn't there. She'd gone out the window. She had to, 'cause we were right by the door, and even with what we were doing, we would've noticed someone walking past us.
Let's not discuss the embarrassment that ensued when Avasa sent me to go find her... not going there. And when Willow fixes things, she'll be right across the hall, in the suite with Cecile and Jan and Amanda. Yay. I'm going to be one gigantic, tomato-red blush for a while when I talk to her.
So the consensus is, while I still don't like them having to practically live with each other at the moment, I can deal. Avasa and I are intensely good. Now if I can just catch up with this stuff for my classes, I'll feel a lot better.
[Open to Sophie]