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nothing really to update about. haven't had the energy to do anything lately.
-wake up at 4:30am
-practice 5-8am
-nap
-eat
-practice 1-4pm
-sit around
-practice 7-8:30pm
-come home
-hang in my room
-sleep.
same thing everyday for the past month, i want school to start up again... because of everything lately all i do is sit around in my room or play baseball. i don't want to go out with friends, don't want to do anything. everythings so different now, and i don't know why. things are somewhat like they were like they were before.. we're best friends.. but it doesn't feel like before. we both want so much more, but i dunno... i don't blame her for losing so much trust in me. we've been through so much this past month, some for the better and some not so much for the better. i could ramble about this all night, but it wouldn't make anything better. i hate change, and i hate myself.
best friends is an understatement
because you mean the world to me