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everytime i see him i fall harder

i've been told he cares...but he's running.

the one person i want to let myself fall for and care about
and he feels weird around me
maybe he shouldn't have hooked up with me, taken it to a further level
he shouldn't have held my hand, kissed me goodnight, slept with me, cuddled with me, kissed up my body just to reach my face so he could peck me on the lips
he shouldn't have done all the things that i wanted a guy who was my boyfriend to do
if he felt weird
i don't want him to push me away
i want him to pull me in

i want to tell him so bad
but i can't.
i just can't.

i hate this.