this is where i should bite my tongue...
but im not gonna...
heres the deal. people have been asking why im not talking to *you* lately. *you* who is supposedly my best friend/wifey/my other half.... heres the story...
i told you a week or two ago that i didnt like what you were turning into... i didnt know how you changed or what exactly changed, but little things were bothering me and making me worry about u- and i dont want to say them on here because not everyone needs to know your personal life, or mistakes, so im just gonna say that adam told me a few things. things that i was REAL hurt that you would go to him with and not tell me. i dont know why you do some of the things you do and it doesnt make sense to me at all- you dont like that stuff done to you so WHY do it to her?and u know im sure u were just looking for some comfort or something, but i would be SO incredibly hurt if you were to do anything like that between me and adam- and it made me wonder...
you know things have been bad between adam and i and yet for two weekends in a row you keep him with you instead of him coming out to see me right away like planned. i know u needed someone to talk to- but i DONT get a lot of alone time with him & i got REAL upset the first time u guys did that when he was at your house gettin my phone charger- and then u do it again and take him to one of ur friends grad parties... not soo cool...
so what happens friday?? lets go into that... now i KNOW u were trying to follow your parents rules and all about no boys... but Adam trevor and chris went out and got all of us alcohol. i didnt hear one thank u from u. adam bought all of that himself. so what do u do come 4:30?? you freak out. like dont even ask nicely for people to leave u just freak out on trevor and adam. i know he didnt say anything nice to you at that point but would u have if someone was screaming at you like that?? probably not... it all confuses me so much how you can treat a person like that. a person who didnt do a thing wrong that night but protect all of us from the nasty guys at the club, get us alcohol, and just chilled with us. in fact, u always spaz on adam, and i cant stand it. u are my best friend, and we went through this before, but he is my boyfriend and best friend. yah we have a bumpy relationship, but life isnt always easy. i never expected our relationship to be easy.
not only did u freak out on adam that night, but you got involved in something between rachel and kristy that you shouldnt have. and i know there were hurt feelings from that.
so i woke up the next day (saturday) figuring things were always like this and to let it go. and i tried to. when i finally wake up we go to the fair... and i felt like 3rd wheel with all of u because u guys are all paired up and i wasnt. thats why i wasnt having fun. that and u guys ALL talked bad about Amy the whole time until we meet up with her and then we are all friends??? WHY ON EARTH would u be friends with someone if they are SO BAD?!?! i would never want to be friends with people that talk so much trash about me. thats another thing that made me think- because u are always complaining about people- i wonder what you say about me....
so i tried to block that out too. due to the fact that we are best friends and all and i didnt think u would do that to me... but ignoring problems only makes things worse and things have bottled up and now... now i dont know if i even want to talk to you anymore. i dont think i really even know you. you do some of the weirdest and stupidest things and i cant trust you.
thats the story.
heres the deal. people have been asking why im not talking to *you* lately. *you* who is supposedly my best friend/wifey/my other half.... heres the story...
i told you a week or two ago that i didnt like what you were turning into... i didnt know how you changed or what exactly changed, but little things were bothering me and making me worry about u- and i dont want to say them on here because not everyone needs to know your personal life, or mistakes, so im just gonna say that adam told me a few things. things that i was REAL hurt that you would go to him with and not tell me. i dont know why you do some of the things you do and it doesnt make sense to me at all- you dont like that stuff done to you so WHY do it to her?and u know im sure u were just looking for some comfort or something, but i would be SO incredibly hurt if you were to do anything like that between me and adam- and it made me wonder...
you know things have been bad between adam and i and yet for two weekends in a row you keep him with you instead of him coming out to see me right away like planned. i know u needed someone to talk to- but i DONT get a lot of alone time with him & i got REAL upset the first time u guys did that when he was at your house gettin my phone charger- and then u do it again and take him to one of ur friends grad parties... not soo cool...
so what happens friday?? lets go into that... now i KNOW u were trying to follow your parents rules and all about no boys... but Adam trevor and chris went out and got all of us alcohol. i didnt hear one thank u from u. adam bought all of that himself. so what do u do come 4:30?? you freak out. like dont even ask nicely for people to leave u just freak out on trevor and adam. i know he didnt say anything nice to you at that point but would u have if someone was screaming at you like that?? probably not... it all confuses me so much how you can treat a person like that. a person who didnt do a thing wrong that night but protect all of us from the nasty guys at the club, get us alcohol, and just chilled with us. in fact, u always spaz on adam, and i cant stand it. u are my best friend, and we went through this before, but he is my boyfriend and best friend. yah we have a bumpy relationship, but life isnt always easy. i never expected our relationship to be easy.
not only did u freak out on adam that night, but you got involved in something between rachel and kristy that you shouldnt have. and i know there were hurt feelings from that.
so i woke up the next day (saturday) figuring things were always like this and to let it go. and i tried to. when i finally wake up we go to the fair... and i felt like 3rd wheel with all of u because u guys are all paired up and i wasnt. thats why i wasnt having fun. that and u guys ALL talked bad about Amy the whole time until we meet up with her and then we are all friends??? WHY ON EARTH would u be friends with someone if they are SO BAD?!?! i would never want to be friends with people that talk so much trash about me. thats another thing that made me think- because u are always complaining about people- i wonder what you say about me....
so i tried to block that out too. due to the fact that we are best friends and all and i didnt think u would do that to me... but ignoring problems only makes things worse and things have bottled up and now... now i dont know if i even want to talk to you anymore. i dont think i really even know you. you do some of the weirdest and stupidest things and i cant trust you.
thats the story.